Me again!
Where to begin?
I suppose I best start by saying that after all my efforts the past six months to become a full time barmaid and after making it to a relief assistant manager for pubs.... I left my job on October 26th.
While being a RAM, I met alot of people, this happens anyway being a barmaid but because I was on relief I was moving around to different pubs. Ten in 4 months to be precise. However on my second to last pub, I met somebody who has made my life so different. He yes HE, has turned my world upside down but in a good way.
I met him and I knew then that I wanted him. I got him. On my last pub it became apparent though that being in pubs and being part of a relationship did not mix, something had to give and I couldn't let that be my relationship.
I walked away from pubs knowing that I had made the right decision, I went back to a bank and I am really enjoying the routine again. I love cooking dinner for us instead of me working and him being sat in the pub. I love going out at the weekends. I love having the same days off as everyone else!
I was tired of being tired all the time. I didn't want to be lonely. I wanted my life.
So yes thats my first bit of news.
I suppose my second bit of news is combined in there too!
I've met someone new. He's lovely, he's so kind, I feel like a princess and the other day I said 'I love you' for the first time since I said it a good couple of years ago! I meant it.
I have mentioned briefly my endometriosis but I dont want to go into it. Not yet. I don't see what good it would do. I have had to hide it on a couple of occasions and of course i'm not proud of that. I know that he wouldn't mind if I didn't hide it, but I would. I don't want him to worry. It hurts yes but he cant take the pain away. Maybe I am in denial now more than I was when I found out. I don't know.
Anyway thats it from me for now, no doubt i'll update again soon, i'll try and make it before new year ;)
xoxo
