Hi Everyone :)
Just a quick update or not. I've had my baby boy :)
It was all a bit eventful really.
When I hit bang on 37 weeks, I was stood in my kitchen and sneezed and ended up with a puddle on the floor, I thought it was my waters starting to leak. I rang labour ward and was told to walk for an hour and if any more leaked to come in. It didn't.
In the week that followed, baby was very quiet and I was worried that something was wrong, I had an appointment with my gynaecologist at 38 weeks and 2 days and I was pretty inconsolable by this point. He agreed that it was best to bring baby out early so I was booked for induction at 39 weeks and 1 day. I was also given a sweep and was 2cm dilated of my own accord.
Unfortunately baby didn't make his own way out before the induction so I went in at 7:30pm on Monday 1 September to be induced and was given my first set of gel at about 9pm. It hurt, a lot. It wasn't contraction pains or crampy it was an ache. It felt just like my endometriosis pain. I got in the bath and it didn't help so I was given co-codamol to ease it, that didn't help either. Tim left the hospital about midnight and I tried to sleep but I couldn't, the pain was still there and as much as I tried rocking and panting through it, I couldn't. I was given a dose of Diamorphine which helped and some gas and air while they examined me, that is LOVELY stuff. The diamorphine knocked me out and I woke up the next morning sucking on the gas and air mouthpiece.
The Tuesday I was waiting all morning for something to happen or even be examined and nothing happened. Tim and I were bored rigid. At lunchtime I was told that I was 7TH(!!!) in the queue as they had 3 spontaneous labours and 3 emergencies before me. I was so upset. I was then told at 4pm that I would be given an examination at 6pm. Tim bought us some chips and at 6 I was examined. No change so I was given more gel. However by this time the first set of gel had worn off and I would need to restart the process making this effectively my first set of gel. Tim stayed until about 11 and I tried panting and rocking again but it didn't work so I had another dose of Diamorphine. I was given the gas and air back for my examination.
Again the Diamorphine knocked me out and I was woken at 7 on Wednesday 3rd for another examination. I still hadn't progressed so was given more gel and was told I would be given one more set of gel at lunch if nothing had happened and if that didn't work then I would have a cesarian section on Thursday morning. At lunchtime I saw a different doctor and she was able to pop my waters, it felt like I'd wet myself and there was loads of it! She advised that my waters would have been poppable that morning, it was just that my cervix was twisted. I went down to labour room and was put on a drip to ramp up my contractions. I had been adamant pretty much all the way through my pregnancy that the only pain relief I wanted was gas and air. However having two sets of Diamorphine had weakened my pain threshold. The first resort was to give me another set of Diamorphine, I did ask for gas and air but was told I wasn't far enough along. The Diamorphine wasn't helping and I ended up having an epidural, although even that needed topping up because it didn't take full effect the first time. I was examined at 4pm when I was given the Epidural and told I'd be examined again at 9pm. I started saying at about 8pm that I could feel pressure and was told that it was normal and it was pretty much dismissed. When I was examined at 9pm, unsurprisingly his head was just sat there - hence what the pressure was! I pushed a couple of times and his head came out, another couple of pushes and the rest of him followed. Baby was born at 9.18pm on Wednesday 3rd September 2014 weighing 7lb 2oz. Not that big a baby after all!
We named him James Freddie. Shortly after he was born he went blue and I feared he had died. He was rubbed with a towel and put under the heater and was fine. Because of three sets of Diamorphine he didn't wake to feed much for the first 48 hours but now he's a little gannet! I love him very much but I am finding being a mum very challenging and unfortunately have been put on anti-depressants for Post Natal Depression but I'm confident I'll get there.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
The end is in sight!
Hi everyone!
So sorry i've been away for a while! I've been busy growing my baby :)
We found out at 20 weeks, that we are having a boy!
So i'm now 36 weeks and 3 days pregnant and the end is near!
When I saw my consultant at 16 weeks, I was advised that due to my Endometriosis and baby's weight, if I have not gone into labour at 2 days past my due date then they will induce me (usually they give you two weeks). However he didn't think that was necessary as he reckoned I would go anytime after 37 weeks (which is now this Sunday).
I had a routine midwife appointment this week and was pleased to be told that baby is 4/5ths engaged, meaning he can decide to shuffle out as soon as he wiggles his final fifth into my pelvis.
Its strange that theoretically I could be holding my little man this time next week.
I've continued to have bleeding all through my pregnancy which has resulted in lots of trips to the maternity ward and one which ended in an overnight stay. I was not impressed!
Ive had lots of monitoring and lots of scans and examinations and baby still remains happy and well.
They kept saying they were unable to find the cause of the bleeding and it was really starting to baffle everyone.
I can now happily say that yesterdays examination bought some conclusive results!
I have been suffering from cervical erosions. Cervical erosions can happen to anyone but are obviously more common if you suffer from 'gynecological abnormalities'.
In serious cases they can weaken the cervix but in most cases are completely harmless.
If you believe you are suffering from these you can ask for an internal examination (although I should point out this involves a metal clamp (except it expands instead of clamping anything) inserted into your female area and its not comfortable or pleasant, infact if they wiggle hard enough its bloody sore!!) This will be able to confirm whether your cervix is intact (apart from the erosions)
Anyway thats it from me for now. I will come back and update you when I can happily say that I've had my healthy baby boy :)
xoxo
So sorry i've been away for a while! I've been busy growing my baby :)
We found out at 20 weeks, that we are having a boy!
So i'm now 36 weeks and 3 days pregnant and the end is near!
When I saw my consultant at 16 weeks, I was advised that due to my Endometriosis and baby's weight, if I have not gone into labour at 2 days past my due date then they will induce me (usually they give you two weeks). However he didn't think that was necessary as he reckoned I would go anytime after 37 weeks (which is now this Sunday).
I had a routine midwife appointment this week and was pleased to be told that baby is 4/5ths engaged, meaning he can decide to shuffle out as soon as he wiggles his final fifth into my pelvis.
Its strange that theoretically I could be holding my little man this time next week.
I've continued to have bleeding all through my pregnancy which has resulted in lots of trips to the maternity ward and one which ended in an overnight stay. I was not impressed!
Ive had lots of monitoring and lots of scans and examinations and baby still remains happy and well.
They kept saying they were unable to find the cause of the bleeding and it was really starting to baffle everyone.
I can now happily say that yesterdays examination bought some conclusive results!
I have been suffering from cervical erosions. Cervical erosions can happen to anyone but are obviously more common if you suffer from 'gynecological abnormalities'.
In serious cases they can weaken the cervix but in most cases are completely harmless.
If you believe you are suffering from these you can ask for an internal examination (although I should point out this involves a metal clamp (except it expands instead of clamping anything) inserted into your female area and its not comfortable or pleasant, infact if they wiggle hard enough its bloody sore!!) This will be able to confirm whether your cervix is intact (apart from the erosions)
Anyway thats it from me for now. I will come back and update you when I can happily say that I've had my healthy baby boy :)
xoxo
Saturday, April 12, 2014
Never lose hope
Hi Blog
Sorry it's been a while.
It's been a busy few months.
I was right as rain for Christmas and new year and with all the celebrations, the gifts, the food, the lights, the atmosphere and the love, I was given a wonderful surprise. I was given a positive pregnancy test.
Feel free to re-read that, I wont blame you. I had to do about 6 tests to believe it. But yes by some unknown miracle I made a baby with no problems at all.
I'm now 19 weeks and in ten days time find out if we're having a son or daughter.
It's not been an easy pregnancy. I've had spotting on and off since 5 weeks - resulting in numerous scans. Every time baby has been absolutely fine and we can't find anything to cause the bleeding so we shall put it down to the obvious shall we. I've been incredibly sick! At 17 weeks I thought my waters were leaking the consultant confirmed they weren't but couldn't determine what the liquid was.
I had my sixteen week appointment with the consultant which is where they decide if your care will be midwife led or consultant led. Consultants means more appointments with a consultant whereas midwife you don't really see him again.
I thought I was going to be consultant due to my endometriosis and all the bleeding. I am actually on shared care. It means most of it is done by the midwife but the consultant will stick his head in where he deems appropriate. He says this is because of my history and also the concern of the fact my baby is measuring big. Hooray, I'm growing a baby elephant!
I'll keep you updated with how i'm getting on but for now, all I can say is never give up. There has been times where I never believed this would happen. I look back at the treatment choices I made and I know they were worth it.
xoxo
Sorry it's been a while.
It's been a busy few months.
I was right as rain for Christmas and new year and with all the celebrations, the gifts, the food, the lights, the atmosphere and the love, I was given a wonderful surprise. I was given a positive pregnancy test.
Feel free to re-read that, I wont blame you. I had to do about 6 tests to believe it. But yes by some unknown miracle I made a baby with no problems at all.
I'm now 19 weeks and in ten days time find out if we're having a son or daughter.
It's not been an easy pregnancy. I've had spotting on and off since 5 weeks - resulting in numerous scans. Every time baby has been absolutely fine and we can't find anything to cause the bleeding so we shall put it down to the obvious shall we. I've been incredibly sick! At 17 weeks I thought my waters were leaking the consultant confirmed they weren't but couldn't determine what the liquid was.
I had my sixteen week appointment with the consultant which is where they decide if your care will be midwife led or consultant led. Consultants means more appointments with a consultant whereas midwife you don't really see him again.
I thought I was going to be consultant due to my endometriosis and all the bleeding. I am actually on shared care. It means most of it is done by the midwife but the consultant will stick his head in where he deems appropriate. He says this is because of my history and also the concern of the fact my baby is measuring big. Hooray, I'm growing a baby elephant!
I'll keep you updated with how i'm getting on but for now, all I can say is never give up. There has been times where I never believed this would happen. I look back at the treatment choices I made and I know they were worth it.
xoxo
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Suffering
Hiya blog!
OK so it's not been so long since I last blogged but unfortunately that's not a good thing. (I meant to do this on Thursday but then Tim started cooking and I had to run an errand and then, well, life got in the way so to speak).
I've really suffered this month, not good.
I ended up taking co-codamol on 26th November for my pain - except it's been that long since I took them that I took them on an empty stomach. Drove back to work picking up a sandwich on the way and then it all went a bit pear shaped. I got really light headed as it had been well over 12 hours since I last ate anything, my head was spinning and I tried to eat but I felt so sick (from the pain, the co-codamol or a mix of both, I couldn't be bothered working out which). I was sat at work with my head between my legs - so attractive and a cup of sugared water. I got over that though and moved on as you do.
A week later, 3rd December I ended up having an impromptu appointment with the gynae. As lovely as he is and it was to have a catch up, it's never a good sign being in his office is it? I had what could only resemble a bladder infection. However the doctor thought it was tied to my Endometriosis so sent me to Gynae. It hurt to pee, really hurt, I felt like I needed to wee all the time. Bathing didn't help, drinking wasn't doing anything. I tried over the counter medicine for cystitis this also did nothing. I had been suffering since November 30th but was trying to control this - in the end I just couldn't. Suffering became too hard. The nurse wrote out a prescription for some tablets but she got it wrong. The pharmacy refused to give me the tablets as the script was wrong and sent me back to hospital. The nurse refused to take responsibility and I stood for an hour arguing with a number of people in Gynae/the pharmacy to do something. In the end I ended up breaking down into tears and shouting 'Will somebody just give me something - anything to help me'. I felt like a flaming junkie.
Telling Tim that night about my day shocked him somewhat. Like every man in my life, he hadn't fully understood. He didn't realise just what this does to my life. Seeing the look on his face, broke my heart. I remember him saying he was stupid for not fully taking in what me having this meant. He wasn't and isn't silly - I don't expect him to understand, I never have and never will. He is amazing though, he's so supportive and I couldn't ask for more than that. I know that when I need him, he'll be there.
He proved how much I could depend on him three days later when I crashed my car! That wasn't anything to do with my Endometriosis though - that was me being an idiot driver. I called him and he was straight there.
I'm suffering these past couple of days, I am extremely tired and today I had a short stabby pain that stopped me in my tracks but i'm battling through as you have to really.
I find the Endometriosis reappearing alot easier. I'm not sure if that's because of the amazing support I get from Tim or because I'm used to it. I'd like to think the first. Hopefully the symptoms won't last and i'll be right as rain for christmas and 2014.
xoxo
OK so it's not been so long since I last blogged but unfortunately that's not a good thing. (I meant to do this on Thursday but then Tim started cooking and I had to run an errand and then, well, life got in the way so to speak).
I've really suffered this month, not good.
I ended up taking co-codamol on 26th November for my pain - except it's been that long since I took them that I took them on an empty stomach. Drove back to work picking up a sandwich on the way and then it all went a bit pear shaped. I got really light headed as it had been well over 12 hours since I last ate anything, my head was spinning and I tried to eat but I felt so sick (from the pain, the co-codamol or a mix of both, I couldn't be bothered working out which). I was sat at work with my head between my legs - so attractive and a cup of sugared water. I got over that though and moved on as you do.
A week later, 3rd December I ended up having an impromptu appointment with the gynae. As lovely as he is and it was to have a catch up, it's never a good sign being in his office is it? I had what could only resemble a bladder infection. However the doctor thought it was tied to my Endometriosis so sent me to Gynae. It hurt to pee, really hurt, I felt like I needed to wee all the time. Bathing didn't help, drinking wasn't doing anything. I tried over the counter medicine for cystitis this also did nothing. I had been suffering since November 30th but was trying to control this - in the end I just couldn't. Suffering became too hard. The nurse wrote out a prescription for some tablets but she got it wrong. The pharmacy refused to give me the tablets as the script was wrong and sent me back to hospital. The nurse refused to take responsibility and I stood for an hour arguing with a number of people in Gynae/the pharmacy to do something. In the end I ended up breaking down into tears and shouting 'Will somebody just give me something - anything to help me'. I felt like a flaming junkie.
Telling Tim that night about my day shocked him somewhat. Like every man in my life, he hadn't fully understood. He didn't realise just what this does to my life. Seeing the look on his face, broke my heart. I remember him saying he was stupid for not fully taking in what me having this meant. He wasn't and isn't silly - I don't expect him to understand, I never have and never will. He is amazing though, he's so supportive and I couldn't ask for more than that. I know that when I need him, he'll be there.
He proved how much I could depend on him three days later when I crashed my car! That wasn't anything to do with my Endometriosis though - that was me being an idiot driver. I called him and he was straight there.
I'm suffering these past couple of days, I am extremely tired and today I had a short stabby pain that stopped me in my tracks but i'm battling through as you have to really.
I find the Endometriosis reappearing alot easier. I'm not sure if that's because of the amazing support I get from Tim or because I'm used to it. I'd like to think the first. Hopefully the symptoms won't last and i'll be right as rain for christmas and 2014.
xoxo
Saturday, November 23, 2013
Another couple of months another couple of big changes
Me again!
Where to begin?
I suppose I best start by saying that after all my efforts the past six months to become a full time barmaid and after making it to a relief assistant manager for pubs.... I left my job on October 26th.
While being a RAM, I met alot of people, this happens anyway being a barmaid but because I was on relief I was moving around to different pubs. Ten in 4 months to be precise. However on my second to last pub, I met somebody who has made my life so different. He yes HE, has turned my world upside down but in a good way.
I met him and I knew then that I wanted him. I got him. On my last pub it became apparent though that being in pubs and being part of a relationship did not mix, something had to give and I couldn't let that be my relationship.
I walked away from pubs knowing that I had made the right decision, I went back to a bank and I am really enjoying the routine again. I love cooking dinner for us instead of me working and him being sat in the pub. I love going out at the weekends. I love having the same days off as everyone else!
I was tired of being tired all the time. I didn't want to be lonely. I wanted my life.
So yes thats my first bit of news.
I suppose my second bit of news is combined in there too!
I've met someone new. He's lovely, he's so kind, I feel like a princess and the other day I said 'I love you' for the first time since I said it a good couple of years ago! I meant it.
I have mentioned briefly my endometriosis but I dont want to go into it. Not yet. I don't see what good it would do. I have had to hide it on a couple of occasions and of course i'm not proud of that. I know that he wouldn't mind if I didn't hide it, but I would. I don't want him to worry. It hurts yes but he cant take the pain away. Maybe I am in denial now more than I was when I found out. I don't know.
Anyway thats it from me for now, no doubt i'll update again soon, i'll try and make it before new year ;)
xoxo
Where to begin?
I suppose I best start by saying that after all my efforts the past six months to become a full time barmaid and after making it to a relief assistant manager for pubs.... I left my job on October 26th.
While being a RAM, I met alot of people, this happens anyway being a barmaid but because I was on relief I was moving around to different pubs. Ten in 4 months to be precise. However on my second to last pub, I met somebody who has made my life so different. He yes HE, has turned my world upside down but in a good way.
I met him and I knew then that I wanted him. I got him. On my last pub it became apparent though that being in pubs and being part of a relationship did not mix, something had to give and I couldn't let that be my relationship.
I walked away from pubs knowing that I had made the right decision, I went back to a bank and I am really enjoying the routine again. I love cooking dinner for us instead of me working and him being sat in the pub. I love going out at the weekends. I love having the same days off as everyone else!
I was tired of being tired all the time. I didn't want to be lonely. I wanted my life.
So yes thats my first bit of news.
I suppose my second bit of news is combined in there too!
I've met someone new. He's lovely, he's so kind, I feel like a princess and the other day I said 'I love you' for the first time since I said it a good couple of years ago! I meant it.
I have mentioned briefly my endometriosis but I dont want to go into it. Not yet. I don't see what good it would do. I have had to hide it on a couple of occasions and of course i'm not proud of that. I know that he wouldn't mind if I didn't hide it, but I would. I don't want him to worry. It hurts yes but he cant take the pain away. Maybe I am in denial now more than I was when I found out. I don't know.
Anyway thats it from me for now, no doubt i'll update again soon, i'll try and make it before new year ;)
xoxo
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
So maybe 'regular' blogging was a bit optimistic!
In my defense, some days I barely get chance to breathe!
So I did it - I am now a full time barmaid :)))
My endometriosis has had a couple of funny reactions to this but nothing that is going to stop me!!
I had one night of pain but it was fine, I took a paracetamol and carried on.
The worst bit is when I worked a 60 hour week, I was physically and emotionally exhausted I just couldnt compose myself but I bounced back and don't regret a second of it.
I always thought that this would hold me back but it's not.
I am determined to make something of myself, to do what I want and do it well.
xoxo
So I did it - I am now a full time barmaid :)))
My endometriosis has had a couple of funny reactions to this but nothing that is going to stop me!!
I had one night of pain but it was fine, I took a paracetamol and carried on.
The worst bit is when I worked a 60 hour week, I was physically and emotionally exhausted I just couldnt compose myself but I bounced back and don't regret a second of it.
I always thought that this would hold me back but it's not.
I am determined to make something of myself, to do what I want and do it well.
xoxo
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Let's see if we can try and get back into this on a regular basis?
I am however making no promises! :P
Unfortunately I lost my job at the bank, but have no fear! I have decided... wait for it...... I'm going to become ...... a......... BARMAID!
I know you're sitting there thinking 'but you're already a barmaid?' yes I am, an evening barmaid however I am going to take it up full time. Exciting no?
Hopefully this will be happening imminently and if not then I have lots of other options until it does come about!
My endometriosis seems to be reacting in a pretty good way to bar work, I must admit I was worried, but it's nothing like I feared. I'm not going to lie sometimes it hurts at the end of the night but not enough to even need a paracetamol.
I have been feeling sick pretty much constantly recently but i'm not sure if that's endometriosis or something else. I haven't been down for a while but again, i've been given a reason to smile.
I love my life so much right now that I rarely even consider my endo.
When I was unhappy it would be there everyday and now? Now it's not.
I guess my point is this: Cherish those that mean the most to you because they are what enriches your life. Take the risk, because sometimes it turns out to be the best thing you could have done. Ride the storm because one day you'll reach the rainbow. Never regret what you did. Forget about the past, you can't change it, live for today, before it's gone, and dream of your future because one day you'll wake and realise that it's passed you by.
Mind over matter - everyday.
xxxx
Unfortunately I lost my job at the bank, but have no fear! I have decided... wait for it...... I'm going to become ...... a......... BARMAID!
I know you're sitting there thinking 'but you're already a barmaid?' yes I am, an evening barmaid however I am going to take it up full time. Exciting no?
Hopefully this will be happening imminently and if not then I have lots of other options until it does come about!
My endometriosis seems to be reacting in a pretty good way to bar work, I must admit I was worried, but it's nothing like I feared. I'm not going to lie sometimes it hurts at the end of the night but not enough to even need a paracetamol.
I have been feeling sick pretty much constantly recently but i'm not sure if that's endometriosis or something else. I haven't been down for a while but again, i've been given a reason to smile.
I love my life so much right now that I rarely even consider my endo.
When I was unhappy it would be there everyday and now? Now it's not.
I guess my point is this: Cherish those that mean the most to you because they are what enriches your life. Take the risk, because sometimes it turns out to be the best thing you could have done. Ride the storm because one day you'll reach the rainbow. Never regret what you did. Forget about the past, you can't change it, live for today, before it's gone, and dream of your future because one day you'll wake and realise that it's passed you by.
Mind over matter - everyday.
xxxx
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