Wednesday 28 September & Thursday 29 September 2011

Wednesday 28: I was quite tired again, I was in a big grump and I don't know why. I know it frustrates Matt when I won't cheer up. I wish I could tell him whats wrong. But the truth is... I just don't know. It's just 'one of them moods'.

Thursday 29: I got a good nights sleep last night so wasnt too tired when I woke up this morning. My exczema is soo bad at the moment, its all up my neck :( Its really itchy and when I scratch its sore. Im not scratching as much as I used to which is good. It looks so unsightly aswell. I however REFUSE to put make up on my neck, i've never done that. Foundation is so expensive so im not slapping loads of it on anywhere other than my face. People will just have to deal with seeing it.

In other news I have a month to drop two dress sizes. Fuck. HELP!

PMA Kim - I can do this.

OK todays picture lets have a nice pair of jeans to emphasise the weight loss.


xoxo

Tuesday 27 September

Is it really only Tuesday? Booo!

I got added on Facebook by somebody I deleted during a bad time last year, it was a nice surprise. Thank you lovely!

I've been much better today a lot less tired however I have one grumble and thats my flaming foot! It is sooooooooo sore, it's like the pain you get in your leg but its just moved from the leg and is sat in my foot. Its redicilus!

I've not been too hungry today but im not complaining. I can't wait for the weekend to get here!

Your picture today is a smiley face after something today



xoxo

Sunday 25 & Monday 26 September 2011

Sunday: I had an alright day yesterday was tired by the end of the night. I had a sore tummy in the morning and was ill. I was OK when I went to lunch with Matt though. It was weird. I bumped into someone from work who said shed been to hospital because she had a sore tummy all weekend and they couldnt work out what it was. I know how that feels. We booked our flights for Manchester, £250!!! What a joke! But still, had to be done, looking forward to going now.

Monday: Today was shocking. I woke up so tired that I had the funny feeling in my chest and tummy. I stayed in bed until half eight. I wasn't going in, I might at lunch time if it got better. Matt made me go in. I came home at half 11, the feeling wasn't going away and almost reduced me to tears. That wasn't fair for me or for others having to put up with my mood. I came home and had a snooze, felt a bit light headed. Onwards and upwards heres to tomorrow being better!

Todays picture is an aeroplane (because we booked the flights)



xoxo

Saturday 24 September 2011

Today was a weird day.

I've felt quite down. I've not eaten much but when I did I felt sick. I've got no motivation, infact I just seemed to spend most of the day in bed, my mum came round as usual. I'm just looking forward to spending time with Matt tomorrow.

My back was really sore at one point and belly pains have been coming and going throughout the day.

Thats about it really.

xoxo

Friday 23 September

I got paid today!!! Happy days a proper monthly wage for the first time in soo long. Yaayness!

I had a bit of a weird day.

Was still SHATTERED when I woke up. I had a nightmare day at work, nothing went right. We went out last night to watch Helen play darts.

I had a Blueberry ST Helier, Raspberry Sourz & Lemonade, Vodka & Orange and A water oh and a coke. I came home early for two reasons

1) I was still tired. Bah.

2) I was thinking bout Steph and Ali jetting off for spain, or more should I say I was thinking about not being in Tenerife. It's weird I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop missing it. It's like being home sick. Except its not home, does that make sense? Like now, i'd be in the pool playing water volley or whatever the game is.

I'm thinking about just going next year, even just on my own. Just booking ten days or even a week and just being there. Steph I doubt would want to leave Ali or could afford it and get the time off because I think her and Ali have holiday plans for next year too. I even considered taking my dad but a) he can't go because of Grandad and b) thats a bad idea we'd end up fighting. So it looks like it would just be easier to go along, it's getting the courage to do it because I'd look like a right saddo. For those reading, just to clear up, I'm not like a loner or anything. I know however no matter who I went with, if it wasn't Matt i'd miss him, and TBH i'll probably hate it. But i'd rather regret what I did than what I didn't do.

I came home and got really weird pains in my tummy they were sharp and stabby but didnt last very long at all.

Your picture today? A raspberry ripple (drink)


xoxo

Two day catch up

God I suck at this blogging lark this week don't I!

Yesterday: I can't even remember back to yesterday. Gosh thats shocking! As far as I can remember I felt like, dare I say it, A normal girl yesterday. I wasnt ill, or tired, or sad, or sick. Wow. Why is it that when I have a good day, I have nothing to say?

Today: Today hasnt been too bad, Im VERY tired now though and i've had the most terrible heartburn today, I actually thought I was going to spew walking home. It was ming. I was quite irritable at work today. I can tell you exactly what caused my heartburn today, it was the baileys I had last night. Bah.

Steph and Ali go away tomorrow to spain for two weeks I think. I hope they have an amazzzing time! Wish I was going somewhere hot, Im hoping to convince Matt to go to tenerife even just for a week. :/

Your picture is of The Bahia Princess hotel in Tenerife, one of my favourite places.



God, just looking at it brings all the memories flooding back, i'd give anything to be there right now. This year is the first in such a long time i've not been. I miss that place so much.

xoxo

Three day catch up! Sorry!

Ooops, sorry guys been a bit hectic!

OK Here goes

Sunday: I spent all day doing nothing. Matt was hungover so I just waited in for him to come round Sunday night. I wasn't hungover or anything I don't remember feeling anything Endo wise. I was on a bit of a down though, there was no reason behind it.

Monday: Was Matt's Birthday - Happy 23rd baby! He liked his pressie :) I got him a signed Guy Martin Picture and A Liverpool duck. Unfortunately I had to work but he has the week off. We went out for lunch and then out for tea too. We went to the pub but only for a couple and I had water and 1 WKD so not alot of alcohol. I had to kill a massive spider, it was horrible! Bleugh. Hate them! I was in a bit of a grump again and I still can't explain it, I guess i've just hit a low patch.

Today: I went to the doctors today to have my ears sorted. It is the weirdest feeling in the world. It's not sore it kinda tickles. I picked up my new bag today aswell :) I really like it. It was so nice to lie in this morning. I had to kill another one of those massive spiders again. I still hate them. I was hungry today but then when I got food I didn't want it, even though it was my favourite dinner, :/ I was cheery for most of the day but still a bit low. Matt mentioned it today. I wish I could give a reason but I just can't and it frustrates me that he wants me to cheer up or tell him whats wrong when in all honesty theres nothing wrong that I know of and I do try and be cheery like today when I notice these patches. I hate this part of Endo, the mental side of it because your expected to control that bit and you cant.

Today you can have a picture of my gorgeous birthday boy!



xoxo