It's been exactly a month since I was diagnosed with Endometriosis. I know technically I have had this all my life but I didn't know for 19 years, yet knowing for a month feels like i've known a lifetime. Does that make sense?
I sometimes feel like 'coming clean' on facebook. My back was really sore at the end of the day and I had to ask someone at work to push my back. She thought I was strange. She asked why it was sore. I couldn't tell her, I just said 'It sometimes happens' I feel like I'm ready but what do I put and if I do, will I regret it? What if people don't know what the hell i'm on about or why I've done it?
This UTI is still here. I've been in pain ALL day. I wish I was permanent already (only another week) and I didn't have this project because I think today I would have gone home. My belly was sore because of this UTI, my legs were sore with the normal leg pain that comes with Endometriosis, My back was sore and my chest is sore for some reason. :( Officially feeling sorry for myself right now.
I was hungry all morning but tonight i've left almost all my dinner, had about four forkfulls. Ive had three small snack a jacks.
I've been so tired today, I slept through one alarm and it was only when Matt text me that I woke up :( I have yawned from the minute I got into work and it was continuous from about 4. I felt sorry for a guy at work who was trying to roll out his project thing, I must have appeared so rude. I'll have to apologise for that tomorrow. Shit.
Helen at work gave me a lift home, well halfway, I was already half way when she caught up. That meant a lot to me, it's stupid it was just a lift.
Tired, sore, confused - sums me up right now. I hate Endometriosis.
xoxo
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