Sorry guys I just wasnt well enough to blog yesterday :(
Monday 10 September 2011 - I didn't go to work. I was just too tired and sore. :( I slept right up until about half one with a couple of wake ups in between. I was sore to sit and stand :( I just lay in bed all day, officially sorry for myself. Matt came round though. Always cheers me up!
Tuesday 11 September 2011 - It's not been as bad today, had a couple of cocodamol and muddled through, still really tired. Had to book my appointment for this month today and it went down like a lead balloon.... again! It's assumed that I ask for awkward times for appointments. I was asked if in future I can book them at the start or end of the day or in my lunch. I would love to leave at half three/four for an appointment but I cant when Mr Fayle only works Tuesday MORNINGS! I would love an appointment first thing and then come to work but I am one in a long line of people waiting to see him. The appointment would have been in my lunch had planning not changed my hours. ARGH! I wish I wasn't taking time out to see him or the doctor or go to AandE or have the day off sick. I didn't flaming ask for this disease! Lord knows if I could make it go away, I would. Im off to bed, im so sleepy. A drink and some sweeties I think.
xoxo
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Worst Weekend catch up
:'(
Friday: I was painted as a cat at work, it was soo cool! I was buddying with Louisa watching her do cases after shed watch me do them, I had a right laugh. We got our prize for the competition, a big tin of heroes, YUM! Think me and my boy will have to have a nice night in with them. I went out for a couple of hours but my feetses got sore so I came home early. It was a nice night with Matt. Id been happy all week, it had such a positive effect on our relationship.
Saturday: This is where it all goes wrong. My stomach was soo sore yesterday. I was screaming in pain, I almost went back to hospital. Its official - the cocodamol has stopped working :( I was dreading this. I don't know what to do, or where to go from here. I took a tramadol and it knocked me out, I was in a lot of pain until I fell asleep and was fine when I woke up. I was normal for a couple of hours after. I took another tramadol before I went out but was sat in the manxy and was in a fair amount of pain again, it was really uncomfortable but I was adamant I wanted to watch Karaoke! I came home and went to sleep.
Sunday: Its been a bit better today but i've been in a permanent state of tiredness, when im not lying down its sore. Its really uncomfortable to sit for too long. It weakens me to stand, I just want to flop. I dont want to take any more tablets because I need to get out of this state of tiredness.
This weekend has made me think about my appointment. What do I do if I can't have this op? :'( Part of me thought the temporary menopause is my next option. But how do I decide if the risk is worth it. I put up with all of this crap because one day I want to be a mum. If I take that drug, and I never come out of menopause, I will kick myself until the day I die. I will feel like somebody has ripped my heart out and run away with my dreams aswell. I cant put myself in that position. Besides I've read all the side effects and I would rather suffer with what I know than find a whole new world of feeling horrible.
Or I get pumped full of drugs and mess my body up even more and when I stop those drugs... when this pain returns and it is ten times worse because its had however long to build up.... how do I fix that?
If thats my options, I would rather scream in pain, knowing that it will be over with in a couple of days.
I don't want to do this. I want it to go away. I want to be normal.
Im sorry this post is sad and I want to go back to being happy, I will be when this pain is gone, but right now, im scared, so so scared.
xoxo
Friday: I was painted as a cat at work, it was soo cool! I was buddying with Louisa watching her do cases after shed watch me do them, I had a right laugh. We got our prize for the competition, a big tin of heroes, YUM! Think me and my boy will have to have a nice night in with them. I went out for a couple of hours but my feetses got sore so I came home early. It was a nice night with Matt. Id been happy all week, it had such a positive effect on our relationship.
Saturday: This is where it all goes wrong. My stomach was soo sore yesterday. I was screaming in pain, I almost went back to hospital. Its official - the cocodamol has stopped working :( I was dreading this. I don't know what to do, or where to go from here. I took a tramadol and it knocked me out, I was in a lot of pain until I fell asleep and was fine when I woke up. I was normal for a couple of hours after. I took another tramadol before I went out but was sat in the manxy and was in a fair amount of pain again, it was really uncomfortable but I was adamant I wanted to watch Karaoke! I came home and went to sleep.
Sunday: Its been a bit better today but i've been in a permanent state of tiredness, when im not lying down its sore. Its really uncomfortable to sit for too long. It weakens me to stand, I just want to flop. I dont want to take any more tablets because I need to get out of this state of tiredness.
This weekend has made me think about my appointment. What do I do if I can't have this op? :'( Part of me thought the temporary menopause is my next option. But how do I decide if the risk is worth it. I put up with all of this crap because one day I want to be a mum. If I take that drug, and I never come out of menopause, I will kick myself until the day I die. I will feel like somebody has ripped my heart out and run away with my dreams aswell. I cant put myself in that position. Besides I've read all the side effects and I would rather suffer with what I know than find a whole new world of feeling horrible.
Or I get pumped full of drugs and mess my body up even more and when I stop those drugs... when this pain returns and it is ten times worse because its had however long to build up.... how do I fix that?
If thats my options, I would rather scream in pain, knowing that it will be over with in a couple of days.
I don't want to do this. I want it to go away. I want to be normal.
Im sorry this post is sad and I want to go back to being happy, I will be when this pain is gone, but right now, im scared, so so scared.
xoxo
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Wednesday 5 October & Thursday 6 October
Sorry guys its another two day entry.
Wednesday - Not alot to say, still sooo thirsty. Apart from that, all's good! - This is why I didn't blog yesterday aha!
Thursday - Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Im mooooooooooooooving!! Hahahah yaayness!
Im going into a bigger flat as soon as ones available :) Wooop! So excited!
Im still thirsty, today I've had 500ml of summer fruits water, an orange juice juicebox, and a 500ml bottle of coke and I'm still thirsty. Ive been getting some weird tuggy pains in my belly today. Bugger!
Ive had a realllly itchy eye today, Bex has had it too, she thinks its the weather. My eczema is still shocking and its really sore when I scratch it (which isnt often).
Your picture today is of a flat like what my new one will be.
xoxo
Wednesday - Not alot to say, still sooo thirsty. Apart from that, all's good! - This is why I didn't blog yesterday aha!
Thursday - Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Im mooooooooooooooving!! Hahahah yaayness!
Im going into a bigger flat as soon as ones available :) Wooop! So excited!
Im still thirsty, today I've had 500ml of summer fruits water, an orange juice juicebox, and a 500ml bottle of coke and I'm still thirsty. Ive been getting some weird tuggy pains in my belly today. Bugger!
Ive had a realllly itchy eye today, Bex has had it too, she thinks its the weather. My eczema is still shocking and its really sore when I scratch it (which isnt often).
Your picture today is of a flat like what my new one will be.
xoxo
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Tuesday 4 October 2011
Aha I have officially admitted im in the christmas mood on Facebook.
Eeep, so excited!
With regards to the endo its not been too bad today. My insides are still a bit dodgy. Ive not really been tired today. Got my appetite back. I felt a bit shaky on my legs this afternoon.
Im realllllly thirsty at the moment though! Bah. I don't feel tired now even though its quite late!
There was a game at work today we had to get into pairs and one of us was blindfolded, the other was given a picture and we had to instruct the blindfolded one, how to draw it, without saying what it was. Matt and I won!! Yaaaaaay!
Thats about it really.
Today you can have a video instead. Its self explanatory
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QYTnzNeTWmE
xoxo
Eeep, so excited!
With regards to the endo its not been too bad today. My insides are still a bit dodgy. Ive not really been tired today. Got my appetite back. I felt a bit shaky on my legs this afternoon.
Im realllllly thirsty at the moment though! Bah. I don't feel tired now even though its quite late!
There was a game at work today we had to get into pairs and one of us was blindfolded, the other was given a picture and we had to instruct the blindfolded one, how to draw it, without saying what it was. Matt and I won!! Yaaaaaay!
Thats about it really.
Today you can have a video instead. Its self explanatory
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QYTnzNeTWmE
xoxo
Monday, October 3, 2011
Monday 3 October 2011
Christmas hurry up please? Cheers.
Payday get your ass this way! Many thanks.
Aha Im sooooooooo excited about christmas already, *I may be playing christmas songs* SHHHHH!
Im waiting for payday next month cos then I can buy all the pressies. Yaayness, then November paycheck and a bit ive already saved can go on Manchester :) Eeep. Exciting times!
Right sorry back to endo :/
Pretty much the same as yesterday, except my appetite is back, but nothing tastes nice! Bahhhh.
Everyone commented on my hair today - its a hit!
My belly and bladder went again today, argh so annoying, why wont they just work?!
3 weeks tomorrow I see Mr Fayle, I still have NO idea what I want to do if I cant have a laparoscopy. How do I decide if I should take the risk for the temporary menopause, knowing it may result that I can never have a child? But if I dont do it, there is NO guarantee in this lifetime that I can have one anyway.
Argh!
I've had a good day today, very smiley.
Im off to bed now though. Your picture today is my new hair :)
xoxo
Payday get your ass this way! Many thanks.
Aha Im sooooooooo excited about christmas already, *I may be playing christmas songs* SHHHHH!
Im waiting for payday next month cos then I can buy all the pressies. Yaayness, then November paycheck and a bit ive already saved can go on Manchester :) Eeep. Exciting times!
Right sorry back to endo :/
Pretty much the same as yesterday, except my appetite is back, but nothing tastes nice! Bahhhh.
Everyone commented on my hair today - its a hit!
My belly and bladder went again today, argh so annoying, why wont they just work?!
3 weeks tomorrow I see Mr Fayle, I still have NO idea what I want to do if I cant have a laparoscopy. How do I decide if I should take the risk for the temporary menopause, knowing it may result that I can never have a child? But if I dont do it, there is NO guarantee in this lifetime that I can have one anyway.
Argh!
I've had a good day today, very smiley.
Im off to bed now though. Your picture today is my new hair :)
xoxo
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Forgive me?
Aha first off, that title is aimed at YOU, yes, you, reading this post.
Sorry i've got another three day catch up! Good news is, I remembered to do it tonight!
Friday: What a shit day. No more said.
Saturday: NEW HAIR!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay! Ahh back to being dark again. Got fed up of the pink! It's too hard to maintain and everyone is doing it. I did it to be different. People were guessing my colour and coming up with green blue or orange, aha, cheers! Had a lovely day and night until about ten. I got a sore belly and my bladder just gave in :( For those who don't have endo, don't worry it doesn't mean I wet myself or anything haha, just basically non existant! Came home and the stupid woman next door was having a party, argh.
Sunday: Lazzzzy day with my boy! Good stuff! Ive been really sleepy today. Foods become a bit of a problem, I don't want to eat but I think something sounds nice and then its like. Bleugh, bin! Not a problem when Im trying to lose weight like but bah! This eczema is still shocking on my neck!
Anyhus off to bed for me as im cream crackered. Todays picture is a nice glass of water cause im parched
xoxo
Sorry i've got another three day catch up! Good news is, I remembered to do it tonight!
Friday: What a shit day. No more said.
Saturday: NEW HAIR!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaay! Ahh back to being dark again. Got fed up of the pink! It's too hard to maintain and everyone is doing it. I did it to be different. People were guessing my colour and coming up with green blue or orange, aha, cheers! Had a lovely day and night until about ten. I got a sore belly and my bladder just gave in :( For those who don't have endo, don't worry it doesn't mean I wet myself or anything haha, just basically non existant! Came home and the stupid woman next door was having a party, argh.
Sunday: Lazzzzy day with my boy! Good stuff! Ive been really sleepy today. Foods become a bit of a problem, I don't want to eat but I think something sounds nice and then its like. Bleugh, bin! Not a problem when Im trying to lose weight like but bah! This eczema is still shocking on my neck!
Anyhus off to bed for me as im cream crackered. Todays picture is a nice glass of water cause im parched
xoxo
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday 28 September & Thursday 29 September 2011
Wednesday 28: I was quite tired again, I was in a big grump and I don't know why. I know it frustrates Matt when I won't cheer up. I wish I could tell him whats wrong. But the truth is... I just don't know. It's just 'one of them moods'.
Thursday 29: I got a good nights sleep last night so wasnt too tired when I woke up this morning. My exczema is soo bad at the moment, its all up my neck :( Its really itchy and when I scratch its sore. Im not scratching as much as I used to which is good. It looks so unsightly aswell. I however REFUSE to put make up on my neck, i've never done that. Foundation is so expensive so im not slapping loads of it on anywhere other than my face. People will just have to deal with seeing it.
In other news I have a month to drop two dress sizes. Fuck. HELP!
PMA Kim - I can do this.
OK todays picture lets have a nice pair of jeans to emphasise the weight loss.
xoxo
Thursday 29: I got a good nights sleep last night so wasnt too tired when I woke up this morning. My exczema is soo bad at the moment, its all up my neck :( Its really itchy and when I scratch its sore. Im not scratching as much as I used to which is good. It looks so unsightly aswell. I however REFUSE to put make up on my neck, i've never done that. Foundation is so expensive so im not slapping loads of it on anywhere other than my face. People will just have to deal with seeing it.
In other news I have a month to drop two dress sizes. Fuck. HELP!
PMA Kim - I can do this.
OK todays picture lets have a nice pair of jeans to emphasise the weight loss.
xoxo
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Tuesday 27 September
Is it really only Tuesday? Booo!
I got added on Facebook by somebody I deleted during a bad time last year, it was a nice surprise. Thank you lovely!
I've been much better today a lot less tired however I have one grumble and thats my flaming foot! It is sooooooooo sore, it's like the pain you get in your leg but its just moved from the leg and is sat in my foot. Its redicilus!
I've not been too hungry today but im not complaining. I can't wait for the weekend to get here!
Your picture today is a smiley face after something today
xoxo
I got added on Facebook by somebody I deleted during a bad time last year, it was a nice surprise. Thank you lovely!
I've been much better today a lot less tired however I have one grumble and thats my flaming foot! It is sooooooooo sore, it's like the pain you get in your leg but its just moved from the leg and is sat in my foot. Its redicilus!
I've not been too hungry today but im not complaining. I can't wait for the weekend to get here!
Your picture today is a smiley face after something today
xoxo
Monday, September 26, 2011
Sunday 25 & Monday 26 September 2011
Sunday: I had an alright day yesterday was tired by the end of the night. I had a sore tummy in the morning and was ill. I was OK when I went to lunch with Matt though. It was weird. I bumped into someone from work who said shed been to hospital because she had a sore tummy all weekend and they couldnt work out what it was. I know how that feels. We booked our flights for Manchester, £250!!! What a joke! But still, had to be done, looking forward to going now.
Monday: Today was shocking. I woke up so tired that I had the funny feeling in my chest and tummy. I stayed in bed until half eight. I wasn't going in, I might at lunch time if it got better. Matt made me go in. I came home at half 11, the feeling wasn't going away and almost reduced me to tears. That wasn't fair for me or for others having to put up with my mood. I came home and had a snooze, felt a bit light headed. Onwards and upwards heres to tomorrow being better!
Todays picture is an aeroplane (because we booked the flights)
xoxo
Monday: Today was shocking. I woke up so tired that I had the funny feeling in my chest and tummy. I stayed in bed until half eight. I wasn't going in, I might at lunch time if it got better. Matt made me go in. I came home at half 11, the feeling wasn't going away and almost reduced me to tears. That wasn't fair for me or for others having to put up with my mood. I came home and had a snooze, felt a bit light headed. Onwards and upwards heres to tomorrow being better!
Todays picture is an aeroplane (because we booked the flights)
xoxo
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Saturday 24 September 2011
Today was a weird day.
I've felt quite down. I've not eaten much but when I did I felt sick. I've got no motivation, infact I just seemed to spend most of the day in bed, my mum came round as usual. I'm just looking forward to spending time with Matt tomorrow.
My back was really sore at one point and belly pains have been coming and going throughout the day.
Thats about it really.
xoxo
I've felt quite down. I've not eaten much but when I did I felt sick. I've got no motivation, infact I just seemed to spend most of the day in bed, my mum came round as usual. I'm just looking forward to spending time with Matt tomorrow.
My back was really sore at one point and belly pains have been coming and going throughout the day.
Thats about it really.
xoxo
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Friday 23 September
I got paid today!!! Happy days a proper monthly wage for the first time in soo long. Yaayness!
I had a bit of a weird day.
Was still SHATTERED when I woke up. I had a nightmare day at work, nothing went right. We went out last night to watch Helen play darts.
I had a Blueberry ST Helier, Raspberry Sourz & Lemonade, Vodka & Orange and A water oh and a coke. I came home early for two reasons
1) I was still tired. Bah.
2) I was thinking bout Steph and Ali jetting off for spain, or more should I say I was thinking about not being in Tenerife. It's weird I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop missing it. It's like being home sick. Except its not home, does that make sense? Like now, i'd be in the pool playing water volley or whatever the game is.
I'm thinking about just going next year, even just on my own. Just booking ten days or even a week and just being there. Steph I doubt would want to leave Ali or could afford it and get the time off because I think her and Ali have holiday plans for next year too. I even considered taking my dad but a) he can't go because of Grandad and b) thats a bad idea we'd end up fighting. So it looks like it would just be easier to go along, it's getting the courage to do it because I'd look like a right saddo. For those reading, just to clear up, I'm not like a loner or anything. I know however no matter who I went with, if it wasn't Matt i'd miss him, and TBH i'll probably hate it. But i'd rather regret what I did than what I didn't do.
I came home and got really weird pains in my tummy they were sharp and stabby but didnt last very long at all.
Your picture today? A raspberry ripple (drink)
xoxo
I had a bit of a weird day.
Was still SHATTERED when I woke up. I had a nightmare day at work, nothing went right. We went out last night to watch Helen play darts.
I had a Blueberry ST Helier, Raspberry Sourz & Lemonade, Vodka & Orange and A water oh and a coke. I came home early for two reasons
1) I was still tired. Bah.
2) I was thinking bout Steph and Ali jetting off for spain, or more should I say I was thinking about not being in Tenerife. It's weird I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop missing it. It's like being home sick. Except its not home, does that make sense? Like now, i'd be in the pool playing water volley or whatever the game is.
I'm thinking about just going next year, even just on my own. Just booking ten days or even a week and just being there. Steph I doubt would want to leave Ali or could afford it and get the time off because I think her and Ali have holiday plans for next year too. I even considered taking my dad but a) he can't go because of Grandad and b) thats a bad idea we'd end up fighting. So it looks like it would just be easier to go along, it's getting the courage to do it because I'd look like a right saddo. For those reading, just to clear up, I'm not like a loner or anything. I know however no matter who I went with, if it wasn't Matt i'd miss him, and TBH i'll probably hate it. But i'd rather regret what I did than what I didn't do.
I came home and got really weird pains in my tummy they were sharp and stabby but didnt last very long at all.
Your picture today? A raspberry ripple (drink)
xoxo
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Two day catch up
God I suck at this blogging lark this week don't I!
Yesterday: I can't even remember back to yesterday. Gosh thats shocking! As far as I can remember I felt like, dare I say it, A normal girl yesterday. I wasnt ill, or tired, or sad, or sick. Wow. Why is it that when I have a good day, I have nothing to say?
Today: Today hasnt been too bad, Im VERY tired now though and i've had the most terrible heartburn today, I actually thought I was going to spew walking home. It was ming. I was quite irritable at work today. I can tell you exactly what caused my heartburn today, it was the baileys I had last night. Bah.
Steph and Ali go away tomorrow to spain for two weeks I think. I hope they have an amazzzing time! Wish I was going somewhere hot, Im hoping to convince Matt to go to tenerife even just for a week. :/
Your picture is of The Bahia Princess hotel in Tenerife, one of my favourite places.
God, just looking at it brings all the memories flooding back, i'd give anything to be there right now. This year is the first in such a long time i've not been. I miss that place so much.
xoxo
Yesterday: I can't even remember back to yesterday. Gosh thats shocking! As far as I can remember I felt like, dare I say it, A normal girl yesterday. I wasnt ill, or tired, or sad, or sick. Wow. Why is it that when I have a good day, I have nothing to say?
Today: Today hasnt been too bad, Im VERY tired now though and i've had the most terrible heartburn today, I actually thought I was going to spew walking home. It was ming. I was quite irritable at work today. I can tell you exactly what caused my heartburn today, it was the baileys I had last night. Bah.
Steph and Ali go away tomorrow to spain for two weeks I think. I hope they have an amazzzing time! Wish I was going somewhere hot, Im hoping to convince Matt to go to tenerife even just for a week. :/
Your picture is of The Bahia Princess hotel in Tenerife, one of my favourite places.
God, just looking at it brings all the memories flooding back, i'd give anything to be there right now. This year is the first in such a long time i've not been. I miss that place so much.
xoxo
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Three day catch up! Sorry!
Ooops, sorry guys been a bit hectic!
OK Here goes
Sunday: I spent all day doing nothing. Matt was hungover so I just waited in for him to come round Sunday night. I wasn't hungover or anything I don't remember feeling anything Endo wise. I was on a bit of a down though, there was no reason behind it.
Monday: Was Matt's Birthday - Happy 23rd baby! He liked his pressie :) I got him a signed Guy Martin Picture and A Liverpool duck. Unfortunately I had to work but he has the week off. We went out for lunch and then out for tea too. We went to the pub but only for a couple and I had water and 1 WKD so not alot of alcohol. I had to kill a massive spider, it was horrible! Bleugh. Hate them! I was in a bit of a grump again and I still can't explain it, I guess i've just hit a low patch.
Today: I went to the doctors today to have my ears sorted. It is the weirdest feeling in the world. It's not sore it kinda tickles. I picked up my new bag today aswell :) I really like it. It was so nice to lie in this morning. I had to kill another one of those massive spiders again. I still hate them. I was hungry today but then when I got food I didn't want it, even though it was my favourite dinner, :/ I was cheery for most of the day but still a bit low. Matt mentioned it today. I wish I could give a reason but I just can't and it frustrates me that he wants me to cheer up or tell him whats wrong when in all honesty theres nothing wrong that I know of and I do try and be cheery like today when I notice these patches. I hate this part of Endo, the mental side of it because your expected to control that bit and you cant.
Today you can have a picture of my gorgeous birthday boy!
xoxo
OK Here goes
Sunday: I spent all day doing nothing. Matt was hungover so I just waited in for him to come round Sunday night. I wasn't hungover or anything I don't remember feeling anything Endo wise. I was on a bit of a down though, there was no reason behind it.
Monday: Was Matt's Birthday - Happy 23rd baby! He liked his pressie :) I got him a signed Guy Martin Picture and A Liverpool duck. Unfortunately I had to work but he has the week off. We went out for lunch and then out for tea too. We went to the pub but only for a couple and I had water and 1 WKD so not alot of alcohol. I had to kill a massive spider, it was horrible! Bleugh. Hate them! I was in a bit of a grump again and I still can't explain it, I guess i've just hit a low patch.
Today: I went to the doctors today to have my ears sorted. It is the weirdest feeling in the world. It's not sore it kinda tickles. I picked up my new bag today aswell :) I really like it. It was so nice to lie in this morning. I had to kill another one of those massive spiders again. I still hate them. I was hungry today but then when I got food I didn't want it, even though it was my favourite dinner, :/ I was cheery for most of the day but still a bit low. Matt mentioned it today. I wish I could give a reason but I just can't and it frustrates me that he wants me to cheer up or tell him whats wrong when in all honesty theres nothing wrong that I know of and I do try and be cheery like today when I notice these patches. I hate this part of Endo, the mental side of it because your expected to control that bit and you cant.
Today you can have a picture of my gorgeous birthday boy!
xoxo
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Saturday 17 September 2011
Nothing much has happened today either.
Mum came round. We went out for Matt's meal with all our friends. It was alright, food was a bit naff but meh. Went and had a few drinks in Jaks. Throughout the night i've had:
2 WKDs
1 Coke
1 Orange
2 Choc pop shots - Creme De Menthe and Baileys
Half a raspberry sourz and lemonade
I surprisingly feel fine.
The only noticable thing today was a bit of irratability at the start of the night and now quite tired.
Your picture today is a choc pop
xoxo
Mum came round. We went out for Matt's meal with all our friends. It was alright, food was a bit naff but meh. Went and had a few drinks in Jaks. Throughout the night i've had:
2 WKDs
1 Coke
1 Orange
2 Choc pop shots - Creme De Menthe and Baileys
Half a raspberry sourz and lemonade
I surprisingly feel fine.
The only noticable thing today was a bit of irratability at the start of the night and now quite tired.
Your picture today is a choc pop
xoxo
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Friday 16 September 2011
Today was better than yesterday, I guess.
There was nothing during the day that was endo related, quite nice.
Last night well it wasnt the best. Amongst other things I came home with a headache.
I don't want to say anymore for today.
xoxo
There was nothing during the day that was endo related, quite nice.
Last night well it wasnt the best. Amongst other things I came home with a headache.
I don't want to say anymore for today.
xoxo
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Thursday 15 September 2011
This illness sucks.
I can't beleive the hold it had on me at one point today. I was so angry at myself.
I was at work and felt really sick, Caroline has to jump in as I leg it out the office. That wasn't fair.
Nothing else went wrong today but that did and it shouldn't. :'(
Matt asked if I was OK. Yeh I was, my body wasn't but I was. He told me to take ten minutes, there was no point. I'd been sick, I was fine. I didn't feel sick before or after just knew I was going to be sick.
You could tell nobody understood as I ran past.
I don't want to explain. I don't expect people to know either.
There isnt a picture today as i'm pretty busy. Sorry guys!
xoxo
I can't beleive the hold it had on me at one point today. I was so angry at myself.
I was at work and felt really sick, Caroline has to jump in as I leg it out the office. That wasn't fair.
Nothing else went wrong today but that did and it shouldn't. :'(
Matt asked if I was OK. Yeh I was, my body wasn't but I was. He told me to take ten minutes, there was no point. I'd been sick, I was fine. I didn't feel sick before or after just knew I was going to be sick.
You could tell nobody understood as I ran past.
I don't want to explain. I don't expect people to know either.
There isnt a picture today as i'm pretty busy. Sorry guys!
xoxo
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Wednesday 14 September 2011
Argh. This ear is doing my head right in!
It popped today at about ten o clock it was amaaaaaaazing. It was brill until matt and I were play fighting tonight and yup it popped back again. Balls. I managed to get it unpop after my shower again but then I had to put the olive oil in again and its clogged it up :( This isn't fun!
My endo's not been too bad today. Got a very sore pain in my back this afternoon but passed pretty soon. Have felt sick tonight but I put that down to eating too much.
Had a lovely night with Matt, Can't wait for the weekend and to spoil him on his birthday.
Eeep, hope he likes his present.
I'm still thinking about christmas, how bad is that! I've got three birthdays and a holiday to think about before then. :(
I want it to be December already!
Today's picture is a balloon, because I feel like it! It sums up exactly how I feel ATM
xoxo
It popped today at about ten o clock it was amaaaaaaazing. It was brill until matt and I were play fighting tonight and yup it popped back again. Balls. I managed to get it unpop after my shower again but then I had to put the olive oil in again and its clogged it up :( This isn't fun!
My endo's not been too bad today. Got a very sore pain in my back this afternoon but passed pretty soon. Have felt sick tonight but I put that down to eating too much.
Had a lovely night with Matt, Can't wait for the weekend and to spoil him on his birthday.
Eeep, hope he likes his present.
I'm still thinking about christmas, how bad is that! I've got three birthdays and a holiday to think about before then. :(
I want it to be December already!
Today's picture is a balloon, because I feel like it! It sums up exactly how I feel ATM
xoxo
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Tuesday 13 September 2011
Argh, I want to be able to hear!
Haha I probably should explain. I've gone deaf in one ear, its been blocked ALL day. It's so annoying. I have just put some olive oil in it (pharmacy not cooking stuff!) to clear it, but i'm still waiting for it to clear. Bah!
I went to see the doctor today as I had back pain again and was very tired this morning, I also had the most terrible pain this morning, I had to sit down. It was awful!
I was sat there this morning thinking this isn't right especially with the feeling 'off' the past couple of days. I thought it was beginning to feel like last week all over again. I rang the doctor and got an appointment.
I went and explained what happened last week and how I felt now. I asked if there was a way she could tell or a way we could stop it happening and what caused it.
Basically there is no way of telling. It was very possible that it could happen again, if one cell has burst and it was attached to another, that one could go too.
There is no way of stopping it. If it's gonna go, it's gonna go and thats it. :( That sucks!
What causes is them mainly is three things,
1) Stress - if you put yourself under stress it is bound to have a bad effect on your body for anyone, for Endometriosis sufferers it could irritate the cells.
2) Hormones - any change in hormones can affect the cells.
3) Pressure - When you are pregnant if you have a hard blow to the stomach then you can potentially harm the baby. If you have Endometriosis and have a hard blow to the stomach you are applying pressure to the cells.
BAH!
Today's picture is an ear purely because mine is annoying me!
xoxo
Haha I probably should explain. I've gone deaf in one ear, its been blocked ALL day. It's so annoying. I have just put some olive oil in it (pharmacy not cooking stuff!) to clear it, but i'm still waiting for it to clear. Bah!
I went to see the doctor today as I had back pain again and was very tired this morning, I also had the most terrible pain this morning, I had to sit down. It was awful!
I was sat there this morning thinking this isn't right especially with the feeling 'off' the past couple of days. I thought it was beginning to feel like last week all over again. I rang the doctor and got an appointment.
I went and explained what happened last week and how I felt now. I asked if there was a way she could tell or a way we could stop it happening and what caused it.
Basically there is no way of telling. It was very possible that it could happen again, if one cell has burst and it was attached to another, that one could go too.
There is no way of stopping it. If it's gonna go, it's gonna go and thats it. :( That sucks!
What causes is them mainly is three things,
1) Stress - if you put yourself under stress it is bound to have a bad effect on your body for anyone, for Endometriosis sufferers it could irritate the cells.
2) Hormones - any change in hormones can affect the cells.
3) Pressure - When you are pregnant if you have a hard blow to the stomach then you can potentially harm the baby. If you have Endometriosis and have a hard blow to the stomach you are applying pressure to the cells.
BAH!
Today's picture is an ear purely because mine is annoying me!
xoxo
Monday, September 12, 2011
Monday 12 September 2011
Today has been a bit better.
I have had a couple of times today where I got a really bad pain! I can only compare it to what I assume when a pregnant woman gets a braxton hick. That sort of stand still and hold your belly with the look of utter shock on your face, pain. Not fun.
I went to get Matt's present today and then wrapped it tonight. That gave me a sore back.
I lost on that bag on ebay, I was leading at like 53 seconds to go :( I've ordered a sort of similar completely different one from amazon. Ho hum.
The exhaust fell off Matt's mums peugeot today. Bloody hell. Good news though, sasquatch can be fixed. Stewie's never failed to fix anything yet.
I've been sleepy today but nowhere near as sleepy as the other days.
I have a small confession to make. *I'm playing christmas songs*
I KNOW it's months away yet but but but it was wrapping Matt's present and planning how much I need to save that got me thinking of christmas. Im sooooo excited about christmas this year! Last year was absolutely awesome, Steph and I spent most of it out socialising, I'd just got the flat, there was snow. This year I have a better apartment, i'm hoping it will snow again but the best bit is that i'll have Matt to share it with (hopefully)
Eeeeeep!
Todays picture im sorry but its a festive one!
xoxo
I have had a couple of times today where I got a really bad pain! I can only compare it to what I assume when a pregnant woman gets a braxton hick. That sort of stand still and hold your belly with the look of utter shock on your face, pain. Not fun.
I went to get Matt's present today and then wrapped it tonight. That gave me a sore back.
I lost on that bag on ebay, I was leading at like 53 seconds to go :( I've ordered a sort of similar completely different one from amazon. Ho hum.
The exhaust fell off Matt's mums peugeot today. Bloody hell. Good news though, sasquatch can be fixed. Stewie's never failed to fix anything yet.
I've been sleepy today but nowhere near as sleepy as the other days.
I have a small confession to make. *I'm playing christmas songs*
I KNOW it's months away yet but but but it was wrapping Matt's present and planning how much I need to save that got me thinking of christmas. Im sooooo excited about christmas this year! Last year was absolutely awesome, Steph and I spent most of it out socialising, I'd just got the flat, there was snow. This year I have a better apartment, i'm hoping it will snow again but the best bit is that i'll have Matt to share it with (hopefully)
Eeeeeep!
Todays picture im sorry but its a festive one!
xoxo
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Sunday 11 September 2011
Argh, ANOTHER rubbish day. I know I wasn't gonna be instantly better after Wednesday but come on, that was four days ago now, I want to feel as best as I can.
I was up until three, yes three this morning. By two my body was telling me it had had enough but I had to stay awake to hear Matt ring the bell. At three I went to go and get him as I physically couldn't wait up any longer.
Anyway we went to sleep and I woke up this morning. I assumed it was about 9ish. It was eleven. Oops. We went for brekkie and then got ready for a work hog roast. I was waiting for Matt and even though i was wearing a hoody I was soooooo cold. I never used to feel the cold, I feel like this has just attacked everything that made me, me.
We got to the hog roast at three as it said one til late. It turned out as we got there, everyone was getting ready to go. OK. I was fine when we got there and then I got a pain in my belly but it went, next thing that feeling came back, the one I had last night where I felt funny but couldn't pin point what it was. Matt bought me home. I think i've worked out what it is. Its tiredness but it makes the whole top of my body feel weird. :(
I came back and just lay in bed. I had some tea but I wasnt even hungry and now feel sick. I'm off to bed as i'm still shattered!
Today's picture is one that Ali thinks is amazing, I really don't see why, yes it's Katy Perry in a pretty cool dress but still....
xoxo
I was up until three, yes three this morning. By two my body was telling me it had had enough but I had to stay awake to hear Matt ring the bell. At three I went to go and get him as I physically couldn't wait up any longer.
Anyway we went to sleep and I woke up this morning. I assumed it was about 9ish. It was eleven. Oops. We went for brekkie and then got ready for a work hog roast. I was waiting for Matt and even though i was wearing a hoody I was soooooo cold. I never used to feel the cold, I feel like this has just attacked everything that made me, me.
We got to the hog roast at three as it said one til late. It turned out as we got there, everyone was getting ready to go. OK. I was fine when we got there and then I got a pain in my belly but it went, next thing that feeling came back, the one I had last night where I felt funny but couldn't pin point what it was. Matt bought me home. I think i've worked out what it is. Its tiredness but it makes the whole top of my body feel weird. :(
I came back and just lay in bed. I had some tea but I wasnt even hungry and now feel sick. I'm off to bed as i'm still shattered!
Today's picture is one that Ali thinks is amazing, I really don't see why, yes it's Katy Perry in a pretty cool dress but still....
xoxo
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Saturday 10 September 2011
:( Home alone!
Today has been a bit meh.
I woke up quite sore so took a cocodamol which eased it, matt wanted to cuddle up with me and rest his head on my belly. It hurt. I didn't have the heart to tell him. Anybody without endo can do it, so why shouldn't I. Oh yeh cos I have a crappy disease that means i'm not normal.
Mum came round and we played cards, it was nice to see her.
Matt came back at about 4 and said quick we're going to Onchan in twenty minutes. I still needed a shower.
I had vodka and orange at the pub and ended up in sooo much pain and discomfort and feeling sick. At the age of 19 I cant drink.
I've been alone since 9ish. I've felt weird tonight but I cant put my finger on what it is.
Todays picture is orange juice. What was once lovely stuff.
xoxo
Today has been a bit meh.
I woke up quite sore so took a cocodamol which eased it, matt wanted to cuddle up with me and rest his head on my belly. It hurt. I didn't have the heart to tell him. Anybody without endo can do it, so why shouldn't I. Oh yeh cos I have a crappy disease that means i'm not normal.
Mum came round and we played cards, it was nice to see her.
Matt came back at about 4 and said quick we're going to Onchan in twenty minutes. I still needed a shower.
I had vodka and orange at the pub and ended up in sooo much pain and discomfort and feeling sick. At the age of 19 I cant drink.
I've been alone since 9ish. I've felt weird tonight but I cant put my finger on what it is.
Todays picture is orange juice. What was once lovely stuff.
xoxo
Friday 9 September 2011
That morphine has definitely worn off. Shame.
I was busy today it was nice to be able to be busy. I've been a bit uncomfortable today. I went really light headed at lunch, was fine after a can of coke and some of my roll. Must have been low blood sugar.
I got given a very pretty cake from one of my managers today. We went to the pub and played cards. It's been ages since I played cards!
I only had one blue WKD and then switched to water. Drinking isn't a sensible thing to do ATM.
Apart from a smidge of pain and light headedness its not been too bad a day.
In other news, I got paid but im £50 down as it was a bank holiday last week and I don't get paid for them. I do as of monday!
Todays picture is cards as it was the most interesting part of my day!
xoxo
I was busy today it was nice to be able to be busy. I've been a bit uncomfortable today. I went really light headed at lunch, was fine after a can of coke and some of my roll. Must have been low blood sugar.
I got given a very pretty cake from one of my managers today. We went to the pub and played cards. It's been ages since I played cards!
I only had one blue WKD and then switched to water. Drinking isn't a sensible thing to do ATM.
Apart from a smidge of pain and light headedness its not been too bad a day.
In other news, I got paid but im £50 down as it was a bank holiday last week and I don't get paid for them. I do as of monday!
Todays picture is cards as it was the most interesting part of my day!
xoxo
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Thursday 8 September 2011
Today has been sort of normal really.
I didn't go to work until half 8 today so I got a bit of a lie in, it felt really nice! I had a great nights sleep. That morphine is good stuff!
My arm has ached today but that's where the IV line has been. I felt quite 'happy' on the Morphine still this morning. It started to wear off this afternoon. I've not been too sore, I did take a co codamol just to be on the safe side. I have taken it really easy today.
As much as I wanted to be like everyone else and not let this hold me back, i've realised that im not 'normal' and i'm certainly not superwoman. My mum beleives that me doing too much at work (and in general, because I wasn't taking it any easier in any other areas) has contributed to yesterdays antics. She's right.
I don't want to have another cell burst. Especially not in the near future!
My dad gave me cans of red relentless and I took one to work today it only had a hole in it! It's ruined my bag! I'm bidding on Ebay for one exactly the same. Wish me luck!
Everybody has been asking how I am, thank you for all your support everyone.
I'm off to bed as im very sleepy!
Please feel free to comment guys.
Your picture today is..... the bag i'm bidding on :)
xoxo
I didn't go to work until half 8 today so I got a bit of a lie in, it felt really nice! I had a great nights sleep. That morphine is good stuff!
My arm has ached today but that's where the IV line has been. I felt quite 'happy' on the Morphine still this morning. It started to wear off this afternoon. I've not been too sore, I did take a co codamol just to be on the safe side. I have taken it really easy today.
As much as I wanted to be like everyone else and not let this hold me back, i've realised that im not 'normal' and i'm certainly not superwoman. My mum beleives that me doing too much at work (and in general, because I wasn't taking it any easier in any other areas) has contributed to yesterdays antics. She's right.
I don't want to have another cell burst. Especially not in the near future!
My dad gave me cans of red relentless and I took one to work today it only had a hole in it! It's ruined my bag! I'm bidding on Ebay for one exactly the same. Wish me luck!
Everybody has been asking how I am, thank you for all your support everyone.
I'm off to bed as im very sleepy!
Please feel free to comment guys.
Your picture today is..... the bag i'm bidding on :)
xoxo
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Wednesday 7th September 2011
What a day!
The pain was a bit better this morning but I thought i'd ring Mr Fayle to make sure. I tried calling and got his secretary's answer machine. Bah! Work was chocka and I missed his call. So I called back and got the machine and waited again.
About half 12 the pain got REALLY bad in my stomach. I took a Tramadol at quarter to 1. I couldn't sit still it didn't help. I called my dad who said to go to A and E at 4 when Matt finished. Then Mr Fayle's secretary called back and when I explained that after Tramadol I was still in pain she told me to go to A and E then and there.
I was in A and E for an hour. I got taken through to a treatment room and after about 10 mins I was crying in pain cradling my stomach and leaning on a slant. The nurse man looked at me and stood at the door. His words were 'The girl with Endometriosis needs treatment NOW!' The girl with Endometriosis. I beg your pardon. She has a name!
Anyway, he comes in with the doctor and a tray of stuff. They took three tubes of blood, put in an IV line, got me lay down, and put three mil of Morphine me. I was drifting in and out so I had an oxygen mask put on. I was all alone, I was scared and sad. They called my mum and she came up.
I was in hospital for four hours. They think one of the Endometriotic cells burst and bled into the pelvis. They asked if I wanted to stay in or be treated as an outpatient. I just wanted to go home. I was walking out and felt sick. So I had to stay for another 20 mins while I had another anti-sickness and it kicked in. If it comes back I have to go right back in and will need to be admitted.
All in all a very hectic day!
For those of you with Endometriosis, if you ever get pain like that please go to your local A and E they CAN help you.
I told everyone on Facebook. I've had a lot of well wishers. I just hope they don't see me as 'The one with Endometriosis'
You can have two pictures today. The first is me when I was being treated. The second is me and Matt when we got together as we celebrated our 8 months today :)
xoxo
The pain was a bit better this morning but I thought i'd ring Mr Fayle to make sure. I tried calling and got his secretary's answer machine. Bah! Work was chocka and I missed his call. So I called back and got the machine and waited again.
About half 12 the pain got REALLY bad in my stomach. I took a Tramadol at quarter to 1. I couldn't sit still it didn't help. I called my dad who said to go to A and E at 4 when Matt finished. Then Mr Fayle's secretary called back and when I explained that after Tramadol I was still in pain she told me to go to A and E then and there.
I was in A and E for an hour. I got taken through to a treatment room and after about 10 mins I was crying in pain cradling my stomach and leaning on a slant. The nurse man looked at me and stood at the door. His words were 'The girl with Endometriosis needs treatment NOW!' The girl with Endometriosis. I beg your pardon. She has a name!
Anyway, he comes in with the doctor and a tray of stuff. They took three tubes of blood, put in an IV line, got me lay down, and put three mil of Morphine me. I was drifting in and out so I had an oxygen mask put on. I was all alone, I was scared and sad. They called my mum and she came up.
I was in hospital for four hours. They think one of the Endometriotic cells burst and bled into the pelvis. They asked if I wanted to stay in or be treated as an outpatient. I just wanted to go home. I was walking out and felt sick. So I had to stay for another 20 mins while I had another anti-sickness and it kicked in. If it comes back I have to go right back in and will need to be admitted.
All in all a very hectic day!
For those of you with Endometriosis, if you ever get pain like that please go to your local A and E they CAN help you.
I told everyone on Facebook. I've had a lot of well wishers. I just hope they don't see me as 'The one with Endometriosis'
You can have two pictures today. The first is me when I was being treated. The second is me and Matt when we got together as we celebrated our 8 months today :)
xoxo
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Tuesday 6th September
Today has been a lot like yesterday.
I slept through an alarm again. :( My chest, legs, back and belly have been sore
again. I wanted to be one hundred percent sure this was OK so I called the doctors surgery. I got some doctor ring me back. I explained I had Endometriosis and asked if it was normal. I was told 'Oh I don't know anything about Endometriosis so I don't know' GAHHHHHHH!
I emailed my mum today and she said that I am overdoing it - especially with the condition I have. I don't want it holding me back though.
I felt quite sick today but it passed. I ate my tea too so all good!
I think the UTI has gone (yaay!) and the belly pain has been a lot better, if i'd have just had that I don't think I'd have taken a pain killer as it was bearable.
If i'm still in pain tomorrow, I will call Mr Fayle and just see what he says. God I hope I don't have to go up the hospital but i've taken cocodamol the past two days and i'm not even on. Bugger.
Speaking of which I looked at the packet today and some muppet of a pharmacist has given me 15/500 of Co-codamol when I used to be on 30/500 I looked at my repeat script and it says clearly that I need 30/500 so I have to find out how many of the wrong ones I've got. Eugh.
I'm off to bed because im FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZING! Brrr!
I've decided to add pictures (if I remember/can think of one/i'm not on my phone)
Today, You can have Jessie J as thats what I've been listening too while typing this.
xoxo
I slept through an alarm again. :( My chest, legs, back and belly have been sore
again. I wanted to be one hundred percent sure this was OK so I called the doctors surgery. I got some doctor ring me back. I explained I had Endometriosis and asked if it was normal. I was told 'Oh I don't know anything about Endometriosis so I don't know' GAHHHHHHH!
I emailed my mum today and she said that I am overdoing it - especially with the condition I have. I don't want it holding me back though.
I felt quite sick today but it passed. I ate my tea too so all good!
I think the UTI has gone (yaay!) and the belly pain has been a lot better, if i'd have just had that I don't think I'd have taken a pain killer as it was bearable.
If i'm still in pain tomorrow, I will call Mr Fayle and just see what he says. God I hope I don't have to go up the hospital but i've taken cocodamol the past two days and i'm not even on. Bugger.
Speaking of which I looked at the packet today and some muppet of a pharmacist has given me 15/500 of Co-codamol when I used to be on 30/500 I looked at my repeat script and it says clearly that I need 30/500 so I have to find out how many of the wrong ones I've got. Eugh.
I'm off to bed because im FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEZING! Brrr!
I've decided to add pictures (if I remember/can think of one/i'm not on my phone)
Today, You can have Jessie J as thats what I've been listening too while typing this.
xoxo
Monday, September 5, 2011
Monday 5 September 2011
It's been exactly a month since I was diagnosed with Endometriosis. I know technically I have had this all my life but I didn't know for 19 years, yet knowing for a month feels like i've known a lifetime. Does that make sense?
I sometimes feel like 'coming clean' on facebook. My back was really sore at the end of the day and I had to ask someone at work to push my back. She thought I was strange. She asked why it was sore. I couldn't tell her, I just said 'It sometimes happens' I feel like I'm ready but what do I put and if I do, will I regret it? What if people don't know what the hell i'm on about or why I've done it?
This UTI is still here. I've been in pain ALL day. I wish I was permanent already (only another week) and I didn't have this project because I think today I would have gone home. My belly was sore because of this UTI, my legs were sore with the normal leg pain that comes with Endometriosis, My back was sore and my chest is sore for some reason. :( Officially feeling sorry for myself right now.
I was hungry all morning but tonight i've left almost all my dinner, had about four forkfulls. Ive had three small snack a jacks.
I've been so tired today, I slept through one alarm and it was only when Matt text me that I woke up :( I have yawned from the minute I got into work and it was continuous from about 4. I felt sorry for a guy at work who was trying to roll out his project thing, I must have appeared so rude. I'll have to apologise for that tomorrow. Shit.
Helen at work gave me a lift home, well halfway, I was already half way when she caught up. That meant a lot to me, it's stupid it was just a lift.
Tired, sore, confused - sums me up right now. I hate Endometriosis.
xoxo
I sometimes feel like 'coming clean' on facebook. My back was really sore at the end of the day and I had to ask someone at work to push my back. She thought I was strange. She asked why it was sore. I couldn't tell her, I just said 'It sometimes happens' I feel like I'm ready but what do I put and if I do, will I regret it? What if people don't know what the hell i'm on about or why I've done it?
This UTI is still here. I've been in pain ALL day. I wish I was permanent already (only another week) and I didn't have this project because I think today I would have gone home. My belly was sore because of this UTI, my legs were sore with the normal leg pain that comes with Endometriosis, My back was sore and my chest is sore for some reason. :( Officially feeling sorry for myself right now.
I was hungry all morning but tonight i've left almost all my dinner, had about four forkfulls. Ive had three small snack a jacks.
I've been so tired today, I slept through one alarm and it was only when Matt text me that I woke up :( I have yawned from the minute I got into work and it was continuous from about 4. I felt sorry for a guy at work who was trying to roll out his project thing, I must have appeared so rude. I'll have to apologise for that tomorrow. Shit.
Helen at work gave me a lift home, well halfway, I was already half way when she caught up. That meant a lot to me, it's stupid it was just a lift.
Tired, sore, confused - sums me up right now. I hate Endometriosis.
xoxo
Sunday, September 4, 2011
Weekend catch up!
Ooops! I forget/don't make time to do this at weekends. Sorry! In my defence I did try to do Friday on Saturday morning but then my pancakes came. You have to excuse a girl when pancakes are mentioned, surely? :)
Friday 2 September 2011 - I didn't get paid. Annoying. Will now have to wait until Monday and have threatened going to the government and claiming non receipt of wages. I had a very sore back at work. I had a sore belly too oh and a UTI. I've had a spot explosion, pimples everywhere. Eugh.
Saturday 3 September 2011 - That sore back is still here, but so is the UTI so i'm assuming they're connected. Matt and Steph have been pushing my back all night trying to make it better. I won 7 at the casino :)
Sunday 4 September 2011 - I've been soooo tired today! I couldn't wake up this morning. The UTI seems a bit better not as noticeable and the back pain has gone almost. I felt sick today though. Yuck. I came across this story tonight - http://tallchick18.tripod.com/RyeStory.html please please read it. This girl bought tears to my eyes.
I'm off to bed as I have to be up early.
xoxo
Friday 2 September 2011 - I didn't get paid. Annoying. Will now have to wait until Monday and have threatened going to the government and claiming non receipt of wages. I had a very sore back at work. I had a sore belly too oh and a UTI. I've had a spot explosion, pimples everywhere. Eugh.
Saturday 3 September 2011 - That sore back is still here, but so is the UTI so i'm assuming they're connected. Matt and Steph have been pushing my back all night trying to make it better. I won 7 at the casino :)
Sunday 4 September 2011 - I've been soooo tired today! I couldn't wake up this morning. The UTI seems a bit better not as noticeable and the back pain has gone almost. I felt sick today though. Yuck. I came across this story tonight - http://tallchick18.tripod.com/RyeStory.html please please read it. This girl bought tears to my eyes.
I'm off to bed as I have to be up early.
xoxo
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Thursday 1 September 2011 - Catch up!
I've somehow forgotten to post yesterday which is weird cos im sure I did! Anyhoo, double day catch up.
Wednesday 31 August - I woke up sooo tired! I got dressed and ready in such a rush so that I could get back into bed for 10 minutes. I went to work at 8. I worked my lunch and stayed until half seven. My dad came to see me afterwards. I was so tired, I felt very weak and dazed when I left work yesterday. My appetites come back. :/
Today - I started at 8 again and it was just as hard to get up! I did exactly the same as yesterday. Oops! I also worked through lunch and until half seven today. From about 4 onwards I had really bad back pain, yet another effect of Endometriosis. All the joys with this condition isn't there!
I'm shattered so i'm off to bed. Weekend tomorrow :)
xox0
Wednesday 31 August - I woke up sooo tired! I got dressed and ready in such a rush so that I could get back into bed for 10 minutes. I went to work at 8. I worked my lunch and stayed until half seven. My dad came to see me afterwards. I was so tired, I felt very weak and dazed when I left work yesterday. My appetites come back. :/
Today - I started at 8 again and it was just as hard to get up! I did exactly the same as yesterday. Oops! I also worked through lunch and until half seven today. From about 4 onwards I had really bad back pain, yet another effect of Endometriosis. All the joys with this condition isn't there!
I'm shattered so i'm off to bed. Weekend tomorrow :)
xox0
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Tuesday 30 August 2011
Today's been a bit meh.
I woke up REALLY tired. I say woke up I didn't feel awake AT ALL.
It didn't really get much better.
I worked through my lunch but did eat lunch. I felt like I was cramming it in. I had half a bottle of coke, a sub roll with chicken Mayo and salad & a bag of crisps. Not a massive amount.
Then after work I went to tesco. I picked up some bread that was so fresh it was really warm! The lady at the checkout said 'your bread...is fresh' careful love with intellect like that you could be a rocket scientist.
I then made my favourite dinner but only managed to eat half of it. I dont know where my appetite has gone!
Matt came round tonight as a surprise we had a lovely time.
Sadly my aunties cat was put down today :'(
Off to bed as I'm tired and have to be up at 6:45. Killer!
Apologies for lack of italics and colour this post was sent from my iPhone.
Xoxo
I woke up REALLY tired. I say woke up I didn't feel awake AT ALL.
It didn't really get much better.
I worked through my lunch but did eat lunch. I felt like I was cramming it in. I had half a bottle of coke, a sub roll with chicken Mayo and salad & a bag of crisps. Not a massive amount.
Then after work I went to tesco. I picked up some bread that was so fresh it was really warm! The lady at the checkout said 'your bread...is fresh' careful love with intellect like that you could be a rocket scientist.
I then made my favourite dinner but only managed to eat half of it. I dont know where my appetite has gone!
Matt came round tonight as a surprise we had a lovely time.
Sadly my aunties cat was put down today :'(
Off to bed as I'm tired and have to be up at 6:45. Killer!
Apologies for lack of italics and colour this post was sent from my iPhone.
Xoxo
Monday, August 29, 2011
Bank holiday weekend.
Friday: not too bad actually work stressed me out in the morning but that wasn't effected by the endo. Didnt drink alcohol watched the inbetweeners movie which is brill! I'd never seen inbetweeners before cos I thought they were shite. That movie isn't. I would urge you to go see it if you haven't!!
Saturday: I felt a bit iffy. I got quite tired and didn't want much to eat or drink. I had half a sandwich a chicken burger and some chips. I had one cocktail when out and some water. I did however get back into my size ten jeans!
Sunday: I was tired again and it really got to me in the night. I didn't want anything to drink not even water. I was tired and really just not good.
Today has been really good I've not been tired had a nice day out. Had a lovely night in. Not felt ill. Ready for my pit now though!
Sorry there's no italics or colour sent from my iPhone and has taken me an age to type!
Xoxo
Saturday: I felt a bit iffy. I got quite tired and didn't want much to eat or drink. I had half a sandwich a chicken burger and some chips. I had one cocktail when out and some water. I did however get back into my size ten jeans!
Sunday: I was tired again and it really got to me in the night. I didn't want anything to drink not even water. I was tired and really just not good.
Today has been really good I've not been tired had a nice day out. Had a lovely night in. Not felt ill. Ready for my pit now though!
Sorry there's no italics or colour sent from my iPhone and has taken me an age to type!
Xoxo
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Thursday 24 August 2011
I need to grow a pair.
I'm quite miffed and TBH even I think i'm out of order.
Today had been such a good day aswell. I've had no side effects today. I've been normal me today.
I've not really got much to say. I'm sure i'll snap out of this mood.
I guess this is what a good day looks like?
Doesn't say much - literally.
xoxo
I'm quite miffed and TBH even I think i'm out of order.
Today had been such a good day aswell. I've had no side effects today. I've been normal me today.
I've not really got much to say. I'm sure i'll snap out of this mood.
I guess this is what a good day looks like?
Doesn't say much - literally.
xoxo
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Wednesday 24th August 2011
Today's been a pretty good day too, had a couple of horrible effects today but not too bad. It seems that a couple of actual effects like physical ones don't phase me but one psychological one and it feels like the worst day ever.
I woke up this morning incredibly tired. It was unreal, I could barely keep my eyes open. It eased a bit throughout the day but i've been tired all day really.
This afternoon I had a very bad pain in my stomach, like I get when its my period. Except it's not my period. It was soo sore and I had to take ten minutes off the 'floor' at work. Ouchies!
Then I got home and had bled, the tiniest amount but still, it was blood. Fab. I've had this before but not very often, this is probably the third time this has happened.
Tonight I've had a stomach pain still and its on my hip now, it's horrible to move. I've had to take a Co-codamol, Mr Fayle won't be happy!
I'm off to bed because i'm cream crackered!
xoxo
I woke up this morning incredibly tired. It was unreal, I could barely keep my eyes open. It eased a bit throughout the day but i've been tired all day really.
This afternoon I had a very bad pain in my stomach, like I get when its my period. Except it's not my period. It was soo sore and I had to take ten minutes off the 'floor' at work. Ouchies!
Then I got home and had bled, the tiniest amount but still, it was blood. Fab. I've had this before but not very often, this is probably the third time this has happened.
Tonight I've had a stomach pain still and its on my hip now, it's horrible to move. I've had to take a Co-codamol, Mr Fayle won't be happy!
I'm off to bed because i'm cream crackered!
xoxo
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Tuesday 23rd August 2011
Today has been a really good day!
I was so tired getting up this morning, it made me think it was going to be a bad day, however I was quite excited that it was the day of my appointment.
My dad was late picking me up to take me to the hospital, which meant I was late getting to my appointment. I was FUMING!
I saw Mr Fayle. It was so nice to put a name to a face! He really is a lovely man, he made me laugh, not sure whether it was intentional but he did anyhow. It was the first time that I could say 'I have Endometriosis', and smile. I wouldn't say i'm happy about having Endo, I don't think I ever will be but I don't fill up inside anymore.
He asked what I would like to do and I told him I want to carry on with no treatment to relieve the side effects. I have Co-Codamol and Tramadol for the pain, I can manage with them for now. It's when they stop working I need to be treated.
He said that Tramadol is very much a drug that medics aren't sure whether it should be controlled or not. If it turns out to be controlled then I will need to have it administered when I need it. I have had Tramadol for a while now (months) and I have only needed it once. I can usually muddle through on Co-Codamol. He says while I have the Tramadol tablets, should I need to take one then I need to call him and if its at an unsociable hour then I need to call A&E explaining I have Endometriosis and have needed to take Tramadol and they will decide whether I need to be seen. For what I'm not quite sure.
He then said that he would not like a young member of his family to be on Co-Codamol on a monthly basis and doesn't understand why he should be happy about his patients being in that position, however for now, he will leave me on it as I seem to be OK with it and after only just coming to terms with having Endometriosis he doesn't want to make changes yet that i'm not comfortable with.
I was asked how I felt about having Endometriosis. I was honest and said that at first it felt like a big slap in the face. Mr Fayle was very empathetic. He advised that telling young people, especially those under 25 that they have it is one of the parts of his job he hates the most. He asked if I'd told anyone and when I said apart from parents, best friend, boyfriend, auntie and boss (all people im close to or need to know) then no. We live in a world where everyone feels the right to know everything.
The truth is though - Endometriosis is NOT something to be ashamed of, it will scare people, but if they can't handle the answer, they shouldn't ask the question.
My care is in his hands, but my appointment frequency is in mine (within reason) I just have to call when I want/think I need another appointment. When I go onto have a child I will need to have regular appointments with him during pregnancy and he will need to be there when I go into labour.
I have felt so much calmer since my appointment.
All in all a good day!
xoxo
I was so tired getting up this morning, it made me think it was going to be a bad day, however I was quite excited that it was the day of my appointment.
My dad was late picking me up to take me to the hospital, which meant I was late getting to my appointment. I was FUMING!
I saw Mr Fayle. It was so nice to put a name to a face! He really is a lovely man, he made me laugh, not sure whether it was intentional but he did anyhow. It was the first time that I could say 'I have Endometriosis', and smile. I wouldn't say i'm happy about having Endo, I don't think I ever will be but I don't fill up inside anymore.
He asked what I would like to do and I told him I want to carry on with no treatment to relieve the side effects. I have Co-Codamol and Tramadol for the pain, I can manage with them for now. It's when they stop working I need to be treated.
He said that Tramadol is very much a drug that medics aren't sure whether it should be controlled or not. If it turns out to be controlled then I will need to have it administered when I need it. I have had Tramadol for a while now (months) and I have only needed it once. I can usually muddle through on Co-Codamol. He says while I have the Tramadol tablets, should I need to take one then I need to call him and if its at an unsociable hour then I need to call A&E explaining I have Endometriosis and have needed to take Tramadol and they will decide whether I need to be seen. For what I'm not quite sure.
He then said that he would not like a young member of his family to be on Co-Codamol on a monthly basis and doesn't understand why he should be happy about his patients being in that position, however for now, he will leave me on it as I seem to be OK with it and after only just coming to terms with having Endometriosis he doesn't want to make changes yet that i'm not comfortable with.
I was asked how I felt about having Endometriosis. I was honest and said that at first it felt like a big slap in the face. Mr Fayle was very empathetic. He advised that telling young people, especially those under 25 that they have it is one of the parts of his job he hates the most. He asked if I'd told anyone and when I said apart from parents, best friend, boyfriend, auntie and boss (all people im close to or need to know) then no. We live in a world where everyone feels the right to know everything.
The truth is though - Endometriosis is NOT something to be ashamed of, it will scare people, but if they can't handle the answer, they shouldn't ask the question.
My care is in his hands, but my appointment frequency is in mine (within reason) I just have to call when I want/think I need another appointment. When I go onto have a child I will need to have regular appointments with him during pregnancy and he will need to be there when I go into labour.
I have felt so much calmer since my appointment.
All in all a good day!
xoxo
Monday, August 22, 2011
Monday 22 August 2011
:)
That sums me up right now.
I've had a naff day at work but meh that was earlier on.
Matt came round tonight even though he said he wasn't, it was such a nice surprise. He knocked on the door and everything so I had no idea who it was.
He makes me so happy.
In regards to the endo, its not really been noticable today have to say im sleepy now though! I have an appointment with the gynaecologist tomorrow. It will be the first time I've met him. I'm quite excited (not really the right word) that I'm finally going to be able to put a face to the name of the person who will be in charge of my care for as long as he continues to practice as a gynaecologist. This man is very important in my life. No offence I wish I didn't need him but hey ho he seems nice enough!
For now I am one happy bunny! I have the best boyfriend ever and I've not been too ill today either.
xoxo
That sums me up right now.
I've had a naff day at work but meh that was earlier on.
Matt came round tonight even though he said he wasn't, it was such a nice surprise. He knocked on the door and everything so I had no idea who it was.
He makes me so happy.
In regards to the endo, its not really been noticable today have to say im sleepy now though! I have an appointment with the gynaecologist tomorrow. It will be the first time I've met him. I'm quite excited (not really the right word) that I'm finally going to be able to put a face to the name of the person who will be in charge of my care for as long as he continues to practice as a gynaecologist. This man is very important in my life. No offence I wish I didn't need him but hey ho he seems nice enough!
For now I am one happy bunny! I have the best boyfriend ever and I've not been too ill today either.
xoxo
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Satyrday 20th August & Sunday 21st August 2011
Saturday -
I watched Bridget Jones' Diary haha love those films. Had a crap night sleep last night with my cold so you can imagine how tired I am, two pillows and a honey and lemon drink will see me right. Due to being ill, I have done naff all as I feel twice as drained.
Sunday -
We went to the wildlife park today with friends, it was tiring walking round.
I've not really been hungry today and have felt a bit 'off', I'm not too sure if its the endo or the cold, or both.
I had a really good nights sleep last night! That honey and lemon did the trick. Just hope I can get a good nights sleep tonight!
xoxo
I watched Bridget Jones' Diary haha love those films. Had a crap night sleep last night with my cold so you can imagine how tired I am, two pillows and a honey and lemon drink will see me right. Due to being ill, I have done naff all as I feel twice as drained.
Sunday -
We went to the wildlife park today with friends, it was tiring walking round.
I've not really been hungry today and have felt a bit 'off', I'm not too sure if its the endo or the cold, or both.
I had a really good nights sleep last night! That honey and lemon did the trick. Just hope I can get a good nights sleep tonight!
xoxo
Friday, August 19, 2011
Friday 19 August 2011
Todays been kinda better. Ish.
I was stuck in four hours of training this morning and no sooner had that finished I had to run off to the hospital for my scan. I hadnt had a drink all morning. So I wait for what seems forever and a day to get in there and be told, I cant do it your bladders too empty. Oh great, never mind that I am bursting for a wee so it cant be THAT empty. I was offered to sit and wait or have a dildo cam examination. I left. So no doubt Mr Fayle will have something to say!
In other news, I have a cold. So i'm twice as tired. Joy.
xoxo
I was stuck in four hours of training this morning and no sooner had that finished I had to run off to the hospital for my scan. I hadnt had a drink all morning. So I wait for what seems forever and a day to get in there and be told, I cant do it your bladders too empty. Oh great, never mind that I am bursting for a wee so it cant be THAT empty. I was offered to sit and wait or have a dildo cam examination. I left. So no doubt Mr Fayle will have something to say!
In other news, I have a cold. So i'm twice as tired. Joy.
xoxo
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Thursday 18 August 2011
I need help.
As you can tell today has been a horrendous day.
I think i'm depressed. AGAIN. I can't beleive this keeps happening, but part of me is hoping its just a symptom and like symptoms of all things it comes and goes. Part of me is assuming it will be gone tomorrow. It will, wont it?
I've had a busy day at work. I worked through the majority of my lunch.
I was walking home and heard something drop. I looked at my wrist and my charm bracelet wasnt there. I was in bits. I couldn't beleive it. I looked on the pavement, practically on my hands and knees for half an hour. Walked between work and where I heard the drop about five times. Even asked the cleaner at work. I came home looked in the bathroom, the hall, around the bed, on the bed, shook the cover, even looked in the wardrobe. My dad came back to the flat to help me look again. It was in my pillow case. WTF?
Then we went out to get some tea and I thought I had my card but I coudn't find that. I got home and realised it didn't even leave the flat.
Thing is I couldnt remember what I did with my bracelet this morning, I remember it being on the bathroom floor but not what happened after that. I remember picking my card up but not putting it down again. Why, why can't I remember?
I actually feel like i'm going mad.
I want to break down and cry, I want somebody to feel how I do so they can understand. As Florence says 'Hit me like a train on a track'
I wan't to be held and told it'll all be OK. But I never cry around other people. I hide it away.
xoxo
As you can tell today has been a horrendous day.
I think i'm depressed. AGAIN. I can't beleive this keeps happening, but part of me is hoping its just a symptom and like symptoms of all things it comes and goes. Part of me is assuming it will be gone tomorrow. It will, wont it?
I've had a busy day at work. I worked through the majority of my lunch.
I was walking home and heard something drop. I looked at my wrist and my charm bracelet wasnt there. I was in bits. I couldn't beleive it. I looked on the pavement, practically on my hands and knees for half an hour. Walked between work and where I heard the drop about five times. Even asked the cleaner at work. I came home looked in the bathroom, the hall, around the bed, on the bed, shook the cover, even looked in the wardrobe. My dad came back to the flat to help me look again. It was in my pillow case. WTF?
Then we went out to get some tea and I thought I had my card but I coudn't find that. I got home and realised it didn't even leave the flat.
Thing is I couldnt remember what I did with my bracelet this morning, I remember it being on the bathroom floor but not what happened after that. I remember picking my card up but not putting it down again. Why, why can't I remember?
I actually feel like i'm going mad.
I want to break down and cry, I want somebody to feel how I do so they can understand. As Florence says 'Hit me like a train on a track'
I wan't to be held and told it'll all be OK. But I never cry around other people. I hide it away.
xoxo
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Wednesday 17th August 2011
Today's been quite good, I've had a really good day at work.
It was quite nice.
I walked home again.
I've not had any dinner but might do fish chips and peas and see if I eat it.
Dad came round today, even though I didn't want him to. I just wanted to be on my own besides Matt.
xoxo
It was quite nice.
I walked home again.
I've not had any dinner but might do fish chips and peas and see if I eat it.
Dad came round today, even though I didn't want him to. I just wanted to be on my own besides Matt.
xoxo
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Tuesday 16th August 2011
Today's been a bit of a meh day.
I booked two appointments as I have the Gynae in a week and I have the ultrasound department this Friday. My team leader asked how often these appointments will be. I feel like they are a burden to the service level and put me in a bad light.
I feel like a bad employee and they are my fault. But they're not. I never asked to have this. I never wanted this and if I could change this believe me I would. But I can't i'm stuck with this for life. I suffer the effects. :'( I feel bad enough already.
I'm not dealing with this well but I feel like I have to because nobody really understands just what it's like.
My mum and auntie do. Steph does she just looked at me and went 'That's awful, i'm so sorry' The gynae does because he KNOWS about this and he sees people suffer all the time but my dad doesn't, Matt doesn't really, my team leader doesn't. I feel like they all expect me just to get over it. So I try and smile and pretend that i'm fine and i've accepted it but I havent. I'm still angry, I can see the positives in the fact that it's not cancer or something that bad but I still want to hit out. I still want to scream. I've never been a mummys girl, always a daddy's girl but by god sometimes, just sometimes there is nowhere else id rather be than on my bed at my mums having a big cuddle and cry.
I used to think my anaemia made me tired and my bulimia what made me sick sometimes. Silly things that were all caused by different things but they're not, they're all part of this crappy disease! It's hard realising that it's not different things effecting your life but one big cloud of Doom!
I walked home from work again today. I was shattered half way but I carried on.
Looking back its been a bit of a rubbish day really hasn't it. Ho hum, onwards and upwards, right? We'll see.
xoxoxo
I booked two appointments as I have the Gynae in a week and I have the ultrasound department this Friday. My team leader asked how often these appointments will be. I feel like they are a burden to the service level and put me in a bad light.
I feel like a bad employee and they are my fault. But they're not. I never asked to have this. I never wanted this and if I could change this believe me I would. But I can't i'm stuck with this for life. I suffer the effects. :'( I feel bad enough already.
I'm not dealing with this well but I feel like I have to because nobody really understands just what it's like.
My mum and auntie do. Steph does she just looked at me and went 'That's awful, i'm so sorry' The gynae does because he KNOWS about this and he sees people suffer all the time but my dad doesn't, Matt doesn't really, my team leader doesn't. I feel like they all expect me just to get over it. So I try and smile and pretend that i'm fine and i've accepted it but I havent. I'm still angry, I can see the positives in the fact that it's not cancer or something that bad but I still want to hit out. I still want to scream. I've never been a mummys girl, always a daddy's girl but by god sometimes, just sometimes there is nowhere else id rather be than on my bed at my mums having a big cuddle and cry.
I used to think my anaemia made me tired and my bulimia what made me sick sometimes. Silly things that were all caused by different things but they're not, they're all part of this crappy disease! It's hard realising that it's not different things effecting your life but one big cloud of Doom!
I walked home from work again today. I was shattered half way but I carried on.
Looking back its been a bit of a rubbish day really hasn't it. Ho hum, onwards and upwards, right? We'll see.
xoxoxo
Monday, August 15, 2011
Monday 15 August 2011
Today's not been too bad. Had a freak out at one point but a lot of stuff got on top of me.
I walked home today and am slightly tired. I know it sounds stupid but I'm proud of walking home.
Hopefully my shifts will be sorted tomorrow.
I've not been sick today. I feel it And am bloated loads but not actually been sick.
All in all a good day!
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I walked home today and am slightly tired. I know it sounds stupid but I'm proud of walking home.
Hopefully my shifts will be sorted tomorrow.
I've not been sick today. I feel it And am bloated loads but not actually been sick.
All in all a good day!
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Sunday, August 14, 2011
Sunday 14th August 2011
Today has been slightly better.
I've been slightly tired today nowhere near as tired as yesterday though.
I've been really sick today. I had a bite of my breakfast bap and left the rest. Had half of my ice cream and left the cone. Made pizza buns for lunch and threw them away. Then bought dominoes for tea and had two slices and threw them up. Grand intake today = half an ice cream. Ha!
We went to see gagsy today it was nice to see her.
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I've been slightly tired today nowhere near as tired as yesterday though.
I've been really sick today. I had a bite of my breakfast bap and left the rest. Had half of my ice cream and left the cone. Made pizza buns for lunch and threw them away. Then bought dominoes for tea and had two slices and threw them up. Grand intake today = half an ice cream. Ha!
We went to see gagsy today it was nice to see her.
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Saturday, August 13, 2011
Saturday 13 August 2011
Today has been another S**t day.
Ive felt so down and paranoid and this is the part I cant change. This is one of the worst parts because no one can fix this.
The only physical thing today has been tiredness but its all the emotional. I get paranoid/think stupid things which causes relationship problems which causes depressed feelings and no one can change that.
I had an almost perfect life at the start of the year and I feel like some b**tard somewhere has taken that all away from me.
I feel like going out and getting absolutely slammed but I cant because I know i'd pay the price for days afterwards. I cant because i'm too tired.
I want my old life back.
Ive felt so down and paranoid and this is the part I cant change. This is one of the worst parts because no one can fix this.
The only physical thing today has been tiredness but its all the emotional. I get paranoid/think stupid things which causes relationship problems which causes depressed feelings and no one can change that.
I had an almost perfect life at the start of the year and I feel like some b**tard somewhere has taken that all away from me.
I feel like going out and getting absolutely slammed but I cant because I know i'd pay the price for days afterwards. I cant because i'm too tired.
I want my old life back.
Friday, August 12, 2011
Friday 12 August 2011
Today has been a much better day!
I haven't felt or been sick once! I've not even been as tired as usual but have been yawning since about 3 onwards! I wasn't really hungry today though but my appetite perked up a bit this afternoon.
I was slightly fidgity today though. I just could not sit still!
Were off to the pub tonight. I really fancy a blueberry cider and a blue WKD. It's horrible to think ill be on the water and a slice of lemon.
My facebook status yesterday said I had the worst day yet. Some guy at work thought I meant work. I just said it wasnt work when he asked what happened. I'm not ready to just come out with it. It's easier to put it on the web where no one knows me and if someone stumbles across it then so be it.
I haven't felt or been sick once! I've not even been as tired as usual but have been yawning since about 3 onwards! I wasn't really hungry today though but my appetite perked up a bit this afternoon.
I was slightly fidgity today though. I just could not sit still!
Were off to the pub tonight. I really fancy a blueberry cider and a blue WKD. It's horrible to think ill be on the water and a slice of lemon.
My facebook status yesterday said I had the worst day yet. Some guy at work thought I meant work. I just said it wasnt work when he asked what happened. I'm not ready to just come out with it. It's easier to put it on the web where no one knows me and if someone stumbles across it then so be it.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
Thursday 11 August 2011
It's nearly a week since I was diagnosed and today has been the worst day so far.
I woke up extremely tired, even more so than normal. I felt sick and had a sore belly.
I went to work and spent the first hour and a half nursing a coffee. I ended up being sick. Thats when I knew it was going to be a bad day. It's now almost time for bed and I have been sick four more times since this morning.
My belly has had a heavy feeling all day and my energy levels haven't improved.
I've suffered sickness days in the past but the sickness has always eased by lunch. It hasn't today. Being tired and working a seven hour day is hard enough without the added sickness.
It caused me to retreat into my own little bubble and appreciate being left alone.
I went to the pub last night for a pub quiz. I had two drinks so was nowhere near drunk and have a feeling that they contributed to my sickness. I had an app on my iPhone which said that women suffering with Endometriosis drink less to reduce the symptoms. It annoys me to think that in my teenage years i'm already having to watch my alcohol intake. Then again feeling the way I did today isn't worth it.
I woke up extremely tired, even more so than normal. I felt sick and had a sore belly.
I went to work and spent the first hour and a half nursing a coffee. I ended up being sick. Thats when I knew it was going to be a bad day. It's now almost time for bed and I have been sick four more times since this morning.
My belly has had a heavy feeling all day and my energy levels haven't improved.
I've suffered sickness days in the past but the sickness has always eased by lunch. It hasn't today. Being tired and working a seven hour day is hard enough without the added sickness.
It caused me to retreat into my own little bubble and appreciate being left alone.
I went to the pub last night for a pub quiz. I had two drinks so was nowhere near drunk and have a feeling that they contributed to my sickness. I had an app on my iPhone which said that women suffering with Endometriosis drink less to reduce the symptoms. It annoys me to think that in my teenage years i'm already having to watch my alcohol intake. Then again feeling the way I did today isn't worth it.
The decision to fight or give in.
When I was diagnosed with Endometriosis, I felt like somebody had given me the biggest slap in the face ever.
I spent many an hour crying over it. I wasn't the only one. Endometriosis doesn't just affect the patient but also their loved ones who have to watch them suffer.
While one half of me thought, it could be worse, I could be dying of Cancer or HIV. Part of me still thought but on average 10% of women have this. Why me? What did I ever do so wrong to deserve this?
I spent a few days curled away feeling sorry for myself. Then I realised that while I have this and even though it will never go away, why should I stop living my life?
Whether you have a cold, are diagnosed with a serious disease such as Endometriosis or have something even worse such as Cancer, you still have the right to enjoy living.
This blog is going to report on my good days, my bad days and the downright dreadful days! No matter what kind of day it's been though, I will NEVER give in.
I spent many an hour crying over it. I wasn't the only one. Endometriosis doesn't just affect the patient but also their loved ones who have to watch them suffer.
While one half of me thought, it could be worse, I could be dying of Cancer or HIV. Part of me still thought but on average 10% of women have this. Why me? What did I ever do so wrong to deserve this?
I spent a few days curled away feeling sorry for myself. Then I realised that while I have this and even though it will never go away, why should I stop living my life?
Whether you have a cold, are diagnosed with a serious disease such as Endometriosis or have something even worse such as Cancer, you still have the right to enjoy living.
This blog is going to report on my good days, my bad days and the downright dreadful days! No matter what kind of day it's been though, I will NEVER give in.
About Endometriosis
*All this information can be found by typing Endometriosis into google*
What is Endometriosis?
Endometriosis is a condition that causes pain, irregular bleeding and possible infertility.
Endometriosis is a painful chronic disease, for which there is no cure.
Endometriosis can be a debilitating condition. It can affect a womans life in a number of ways including:
Endometriosis does not just affect women during their periods.
There is no condition in medicine quite like it.
It affects between 5-15% of women.
Symptoms of Endometriosis
Symptoms of Endometriosis include:
What is Endometriosis?
Endometriosis is a condition that causes pain, irregular bleeding and possible infertility.
Endometriosis is a painful chronic disease, for which there is no cure.
Endometriosis can be a debilitating condition. It can affect a womans life in a number of ways including:
- Chronic Pain
- Fatigue
- Depression
- Relationship Problems
- Inability to conceive
- Difficulity fulfilling work and social commitments
Endometriosis does not just affect women during their periods.
There is no condition in medicine quite like it.
It affects between 5-15% of women.
Symptoms of Endometriosis
Symptoms of Endometriosis include:
- Painful Periods
- Urinary urgency and frequency
- Chronic fatigue
- Extreme leg pain
- Fever
- Headaches
- Depression
- Anxiety
- Hypoglycemia
- Mood Changes
- Bloating
- Sickness
About me
My name is Kim, I am 19 and I have been diagnosed with Endometriosis after a year of suffering with chronic period pains and being admitted to A and E earlier this year.
I fought for a year for my diagnosis and if you think you have Endometriosis then please continue your fight.
Two weeks before my diagnosis I almost gave in trying to get a diagnosis and thought whatever i'll just deal with not knowing.
I fought for a year for my diagnosis and if you think you have Endometriosis then please continue your fight.
Two weeks before my diagnosis I almost gave in trying to get a diagnosis and thought whatever i'll just deal with not knowing.
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